I'm still here... just melting...

Yay... seems heatwaves in the UK (and Europe) are here to stay and get worse each time!

Guys...I'm at my wits end...

But on a lighter note - thank you for all the wonderful messages of love and support following my last post/journal - and always to be honest. It's really helped me not feel so alone and given me a boost to try carry on and push more to get help (even if the heat has really hindered my abilties lately to...just exist...) 
Hearing from people who face similar or the same is also comforting, even if we are struggling we have each other to help or at least stand by our side. 

I love you all so much - thank you, always~ ♡

I've made some very slow progress - on work and seeking more help (yay therapy time and more meds!) - so expect updates and movement over the weekend or early next week...  if I don't turn into a puddle first... 

I don't think I could ever truly thank you enough for the love this community gives me -  it's incredible.   

Much love!
Stay safe!

Zan~ 
(P.S if I see any comments about the heat in the UK being "nothing" compared to x or about bloody AC...I will eat you.) 

Just wanted to say first - thank you so much for the wonderful and caring comments on my previous journal.
It means the world to me - it really does.

I know I don't reply much to comments - on journals or art - but I read every single one.

It has honestly really helped, knowing there are kind and joyful people online.
I do ignore and just block the people who are an issue or harrassing, I don't respond to them either. Even more so now I just pity them.

But anyway - I've given them way too much of my time as it is... moving on!

I've come ot realise I'm just getting slower at drawing these days - recently developed RSI in my right hand too (my drawing hand yay).

But my enthusiasm is coming back and I enjoy focusing on artwork for others to enjoy ♡

Just thank you all - you mean the world to me!

~o Freckle Feast News o~

Chapter 2 is almost complete!

There a 4 pages left of this chapter - plus some bonus illustrations.

Thank you all to those who enjoy and support it!
I wouldn't have created so many pages if it wasn't for all of you (feeding Zandii is a full time job)~

I know the consistency and schedule of pages is always sporadic and delayed - but we are almost there folks!

And good news... Chapter 3 is in the works~


~o Other update o~

I will be adding a commission and wait list - probably added to my front page bio - to show how many I have active and what type of commission they are~

Just to help show my commisison status and availablity.

Just a few things!
Love you all~


Thank you ♡

Just needed to write this hear because honestly I'm close to giving up... but this community has helped me so much and never done me wrong. 

Recently, away from my furry account (what I call my 'personal' accounts for other fandoms/non-furry content), I have had nothing but toxic and negative experiences. 

I've recieved abuse, hateful comments, death threats (toward me and my sister) and accusations that are false and entirely made up by people stalking my accounts, all starting from my personal preference in characters and personal ships... people clearly have nothing better to do.

The world and especially online is already such a miserable experience. I try my best to stay positive, ignore and block anything that I don't like or bring me joy. I report when I need to, but it continues across multiple platforms, from anonymous or alt accounts. 

Along with artblock and burn out, it's killing my want to continue - but I will. Out of spite. 

I'm not going to let them win and ruin my online career and my passion for art, but.... it's fucking hard some days...

I'm really struggling, with work and myself. I'm on medication, have constant body issues, mental health is shot (and I feel getting worse). 
I already constantly chase my ass catching up on work and now I'm even more behind. Some days I can't even look at my laptop and I fight the urge to just delete everything.

Just wanted to vent and share some personal things...

The furry community (the ones who are always bad mouthed and abused and called heinous things) have NEVER let me down. 
You have always been kind, compassionate, caring and helpful.
I've never had a bad experience with anyone. 

(If you read all of this - thank you, you're a star... sorry it's a ramble..)

Thank you all for being so wonderful and welcoming, no matter what you're into, who you are, what you do - I don't know what I'd do without you. Commissions or otherwise, thank you for you support, always. ♡

After all the awful shit I've had to endure recently, this has always been my safe place. 

It means the world to me. 

Thank you ♡