Just needed to write this hear because honestly I'm close to giving up... but this community has helped me so much and never done me wrong. 

Recently, away from my furry account (what I call my 'personal' accounts for other fandoms/non-furry content), I have had nothing but toxic and negative experiences. 

I've recieved abuse, hateful comments, death threats (toward me and my sister) and accusations that are false and entirely made up by people stalking my accounts, all starting from my personal preference in characters and personal ships... people clearly have nothing better to do.

The world and especially online is already such a miserable experience. I try my best to stay positive, ignore and block anything that I don't like or bring me joy. I report when I need to, but it continues across multiple platforms, from anonymous or alt accounts. 

Along with artblock and burn out, it's killing my want to continue - but I will. Out of spite. 

I'm not going to let them win and ruin my online career and my passion for art, but.... it's fucking hard some days...

I'm really struggling, with work and myself. I'm on medication, have constant body issues, mental health is shot (and I feel getting worse). 
I already constantly chase my ass catching up on work and now I'm even more behind. Some days I can't even look at my laptop and I fight the urge to just delete everything.

Just wanted to vent and share some personal things...

The furry community (the ones who are always bad mouthed and abused and called heinous things) have NEVER let me down. 
You have always been kind, compassionate, caring and helpful.
I've never had a bad experience with anyone. 

(If you read all of this - thank you, you're a star... sorry it's a ramble..)

Thank you all for being so wonderful and welcoming, no matter what you're into, who you are, what you do - I don't know what I'd do without you. Commissions or otherwise, thank you for you support, always. ♡

After all the awful shit I've had to endure recently, this has always been my safe place. 

It means the world to me. 

Thank you ♡

Grief.