With a heavy heart: Hiatus

Dear fans, friends, followers and all.

First of all: Apologies for the lack of news lately. It’s been another extremely rough few days. And in all honesty: Just getting myself through the day took all the energy and willpower that I had. The lows were about as low as they could get. And at this point, I can unfortunately say that I understand what people mean when they say that they have depression. I though anxiety was bad, oh boy could it be as bad in another way too.

 And at this point there’s no way around it, and I’m sorry that I must announce it. But I have to be honest and fair to you folks. And to myself as well:

I’ve been unable to pull myself out of my mental problems this time around. The situation is still bad; and currently I’m doing my best to keep my (precarious) mental state sound. Getting through each day is a struggle, life has lost quite some glamour to me, and my hope for the future is...severely diminished. 

After long talks with my physician, family members and other loved ones. I’ve decided to go the clinical route for my mental health problems. It’s too much to handle on my own. I need professional help; which I will be getting end this month. As the intake at the fear-and-compulsion clinic is planned on the 30th of September. I will not lie. I’m already dreading it, and the treatment I will get there. But at this point, it’s either that...or something I’d rather not think nor discuss about. Giving up is not an option.

To all of you who wish to do so: Please pause your subscriptions. I’m not going to beat around the bush: This treatment is going to take time. Most likely months. And in the intermission, I can make no promises on schedules nor deliveries. My hope is still that once I feel a bit better, a “motivational spark” will hit. And I will make something for you all to enjoy; however small it may be. But at the moment I can make NO promises on that, and I have to be completely honest about it. If you pause your subscription: Please consider staying connected as a follower or free member. That way if I do produce something, or make my comeback (which I do intend one day), you will all know right away. ❤️‍🔥

I’ll be online on Discord this evening (CEST ~18.00-20.00) to chat, hang out and answer questions you all may have. I’ll also try to do the same here, in the comments.

I’m devastated that it has come to this, but please understand that I wouldn’t have done so if I felt there was no other way. It is my sincere goal that once I get back from all of this. I will come back to you all as a better, stronger and more hopeful Scriptor.

You all take damn good care of yourselves. Go give your loved ones a hug, and please know: This work, and all of you. Mean the world to me. I’ve been truly grateful for the last 4 years and I truly hope to get back into it full swing one day.

With love and a squeaky bow. 💯