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Dear pervs and other night creatures [IMPORTANT!]

Back in January, I wrote a long, whiny rant about battling depression, quitting weed, and other fun stuff. I also laid out my master plan — I was working on couple personal projects and was hoping to find investors so that I could fully focus on them. In the meantime I was planning to continue working on BA to keep the lights on. 
Fast forward 9 months later, and I’ve been doing exactly that: grinding on BA while at the same time pushing forward my other, more ambitious projects, and looking for investors. Quite honestly, I was already losing hope, when something funny happened. 
Two weeks ago, I went to a metal concert, got a bit too drunk, and bumped into some dude. We started talking about music, then drugs (obviously), and then — plot twist — it turned out he’s loaded and actively looking for stuff to invest in. 
So I spent last 2 weeks talking with him about my projects, and yesterday I finally got news - he wants to invest! It’s not a mountain of money, but it’s enough to keep me afloat for a year and a half without having to stress about side gigs. Honestly, this is the best news I’ve had in years

So what it means for BA?

Here’s where it gets a bit tricky. Truth be told, I probably won’t have much time for the game. I might drop an update here and there for fun, but it’s not as easy as it looks, and I don’t want to make any promises I can’t keep. Buuuut... 
1. I asked my close friend (who wrote couple quests for BA in the past), to take over the project. He's thinking about. In my opinion he's the best candidate for this shit - he’s got the skills, the twisted mind, and the experience to pull it off. But he asked for some time to consider it, so I don't know yet what he'll say.
2. If that falls through, maybe one of you lovely degenerates wants to give it a shot? If so than write a quest for BA and send it over on [email protected] . If your writing is good and fits the game style - I can bring you in, explain everything, and share the income.
3. I’m also thinking about "licensing" BA's engine for anyone wanting to make their own game. Basically, you get all the features and tools I’ve built, just without the writing. You can tweak it to your own needs and use it for your project, with me taking a small 10% cut of the profits. It’s streamlined, it works, and honestly, I think it’s pretty dope. 
If all that fails, I’ll keep the game’s server and domain running as long as I can.

Now, about the promises... 

Yeah, this part sucks. I know I promised you guys a lot - quests, features, DLC. Hell, I even posted roadmaps just two months ago, in freaking July.  Some of the stuff is already in progress (2 new Rose quests, the Corgis, and Operation Penetration DLC), but others are still way off, and unless someone else takes over BA, those promises won't be delivered. It feels shitty to say it, but it's the truth.
I can already hear the "I told you so" crowd on F95: “He was just in it for the money, blah blah blah.” Well, fuck 'em. I’ve been always honest about the fact that - yes, I was doing this game for the money. But at the same time - I genuinely wanted to deliver on the promises. I would love to give you guys one last update as a parting gift, but unfortunately, with my laptop getting flooded in July (RIP), and me spending last weeks on getting the investor, there's nothing I could even put in it.
All I can say is...

Sorry. And... thank you!

You, yeah you! Whoever you are, wherever you are, know this: you might have thought you are just jacking off to a porn game. But you're wrong. I started this thing five years ago, completely wrecked - depressed, addicted, fresh off a crushing personal apocalypse. Today, I actually think I might be happy again. And it’s because of you and your... Well, let’s just say it this way - your cum made it possible. Thanks, dude!

TL;DR

Got drunk, met a rich guy, got funded. BA goes on pause again (sorry), in the near future I might pass the torch to someone else. F95 trolls can suck it. Thanks for sticking with me, you’re the real MVPs! 

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The game has new domain

Hey dudes, the game has new domain and the old one is not working. The domain is:

https://becomealpha.games 


Thanks!

By the way - I'm trying to speed up the game. Vote in the poll below to help me see if changing the domain improved the game performance or worsen it. I'm still looking for a new server, because you were saying the server is working slow (not loading some clips etc.)
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v. 0.3.53 Biggus updatus

Ok dudes, so here's another big update. I had to postpone new Rose quest, because there was too much stuff already. But it's coming next.

In this update there's shitload of fixes and changes on top of 4 quite big random events with very sexy ladies - I think you guys will like it;))) 

I had soooo much problems with this update (including one engine crash that cost me 3 days of work) so I cannot promise everything works, however if you notify me of any problems (and send your save game to my email) I should be able to write hotfixes pretty quickly.

Play online: https://becomealphagame.com

Play offline: mega.nz or gofile.io
Help: discord.gg

Changelog:

1. New Fap Mode code

There's a new Fap Mode code to turn on the Fap Mode for our patrons. You can get the new code here: Get Fap Mode code.

2. Third time back on Patreon

Ok, so we're trying one more time with Patreon. Because I'm banned, we decided to open an account in the name of my good friend Loco, who will also manage the profile. Because they don't like BA there (god knows why) it is definitely better to support us on SubscribeStar, but if you have no other choice - you can get your Fap Mode code from there too. Also, we don't want to trigger the Patreon censorship, so we'll only publish shortened versions of changelogs, nothing else. Here's the link: BA Patreon profile.

3. Save/load for iOS

Many people told me they can't load or save game in iOS. I've read about it, and come out with solution (hopefully). There's a new button now in the sidebar menu, that you can use.
The way it works is that it converts your save game to a text string, that you can save in your notepad or something, and then paste back in game to load your progress. It's not very smooth, but at least it works (hopefully).

4. Better character avatars on location buttons

Now the avatars of characters will show up on the location button, even if the character is not directly in this location, but in sub location (eg. Daphne and Alexa will appear on the Daphne's house location, even if they are in their rooms).

5. New area - The Outskirts

So there's a new area in the game called The Outskirts.
The area gathers in one place all the locations that appeared in the quests (eg. Halloween) but were not accessible otherwise:
  • Dark Forest
  • Jason's House
  • Abandoned House

To get to the new area, you need to finish Halloween quest first. After you do, new location "Old Cemetery" will appear in the Neighbourhood area. Go there, and use the path to get to the Dark Forest.

6. New random events

Ok, so there's a whole bunch of new random events in game with some quality action. There's some randomness to it, so they will not always launch, or a different event might launch instead, but if you try couple times you will finally see them. Here is a breakdown of what's new:
Two new random events in the toilets - one is straight, the other one is shemale. To trigger them go to any of the publich toilets (in the Market, Club or College) and do any activity there (like searching, peeking, etc.):
One new random event in the Abandoned House location - to trigger it go to the Abandoned House on The Outskirts (new area) and do any activity there (like searching etc.):
One new random event in the Dark Forest location - to trigger it go to the Dark Forest on The Outskirts (new area) and do any activity there (like searching etc.):

7. Shitload of new sex clips for peeking

I added A LOT of new clips (hetero and shemale) for peeking in toilets in College, Club or Market.

8. Changes in the old random events

I've moved around some events and changed the way some of them are triggered.
The event with the muggers will now happen less often (I added delay, so that if it happens once, it will not happen for at least one full day). Instead, this event will also happen in the Dark Forest, so you need to watch out there.
The event with dominating shemale, that happened in the Park, will now happen in the Dark Forest (it might still happen in the park but only during "Look for Trouble" activity;)
Swarm event, in which player gets in the middle of the marathon, will not happen during "Look for Trouble" anymore, but instead it will happen while doing something else in the park. Also, it will happen less often.
Encounter with a pissing girl will now also happen in the Dark Forest and Abandoned Building.

9. New activities

Along the new locations are new activities - eg. in the Dark Forest you can go on a hike, and on Jason's House you can buy drugs, or attend wild meth orgies on Fridays.

10. Changes in the items and effects

New item: Meth - you can buy it from Jason. For now it doesn't do much (gives you a drug effect and some multipliers) but in the future this will be expanded.
New item: Meat cookie - you can find it in the Dark Forest and Abandoned House. At the moment they don't do anything, but they will become needed after next update. By the way - you can now get one Meat Cookie during Different Kind of Meatbags quest.
Trip effect that you get after consuming LSD will now have positive multipliers instead of negative.
Viagred effect gives also domination multiplier now.
Nofap effect will give better multipliers for dom and love, but will lower max orgasm in sex, so it will be harder to not cum.
Groin guard item will now work only once, so it will break and get removed after it sucessfully protected player's balls. Also, you cannot "use" a groin guard anymore, it just gives you a one time passive effect of protecting your balls from getting smashed.
Diamond Balls effect will now give you domination, and cure any Smashed Balls effect you had.
New item: Ball Vitamins - if you eat it you will get Diamond Balls (before this effect was given if player "used" the Groin Guard, which is no longer possible).
Super Alpha Strength supplements are now called Super Mega Vitamins, and it gives player You feel something effect, which is gives some random stats (max +1 to -1 orgasm during sex and 0.75 to 1.25 love/dom multipliers) - the stats you get change each time you take the vitamins, so it can get crazy;)
New item Fucky Pills - which gives you an effect Something's fucky which is more extreme version of You feel something effect (max +3/-3 and -200% + 200%). You can buy it only at The Therapist and Doctor Office, because that's where you get the really freaky stuff.
Some things might be broken, let me know if you encounter bugs.

Other changes

11. New team members
Added new team members: Venum is now the Discord engineer, and Loco is back and will manage Patreon for now (I do hope however he will also start writing again, he was fucking great at it).
12. Rewritten Search activity
This is something you won't even notice, but I've rewritten search activity, and it might be buggy. Please notify me if anything is wrong (missing pic of found items or something).
13. Huge rewrites in the holiday system
Basically, I had to change a lot of stuff in the holiday system, which is responsible for holiday quests (XXXmas and Halloween). Most likely you will not even notice the changes, however you might notice bugs - so hit me up if you find anything wrong;)
14. Changes in Daphne drunk event
Getting to fuck drunk Daphne when she mistakenly goes to player's room at night will be harder if player's relationship status with Daphne is low.
15. Changes in Amia's toilet event
Amia's event will now happen more often in the college toilet.
16. Some changes in the engine
Refreshing of the interface after popup is closed.
Cleaned up the remains of Error 66 that I was hunting last year.
Added sideDial (functions that generates small dialogs with characters in location) everywhere where it was missing.

UI changes

17. Reorganized the list of supporters
In the about page there was couple different lists for different levels of supporters. I decided to combine them into just one list Top Supporters. It will include top contributors, without the division for sponsors and others, because some people registered for top tier just for one month and then cancelled, while some of you support me on lower tiers for months or years - it just wasn't fair.
18. Layout changes in the player popup
Some layout changes and fixes on the player popup - expanded help, moved help from kamasutra to the top (it wasn't working at the bottom anyway).
Also, one small feature - clicking on the opened tooltip will lock it, so that moving away your cursor will not automatically close it.
19. Changes in Support, Enter the code and Changelog pages
A lot of small edits, rewrites, and polish for Support, Enter the code, and Changelog pages. Mostly I've cleaned up the nomenclature regarding Fap Mode - before we had Supporter Code, Fap Mode, and some other stuff. Now it's just Fap Mode, and to activate it you need Fap Mode code. Simple.
20. Font unification in the popups
It will now look slightly better (or more likely - you won't even notice the difference, but I'm happy).
21. Changes in the notifications about holiday ending
Small change - the notifications that holiday (XXXmas or Halloween) have passed won't be so depressing anymore (also yellow instead of red) and they will appear after the holiday day is over, not right after the quest is finished, which makes more sense.

Bug fixes

22. Players getting stuck with inactive sleep button
Fixed a problem with players getting stuck at night with inactive sleep button - this needs testing!
23. Broken visual effects after taking LSD
After player took LSD, after the trip event was over, the visual effects (the slight blinking of the interface) was conflicting with other visual effects (fading in and out of interface when player was changed locations). This should be fixed now.
24. Broken trip event after police event
If the player got catched by police, and took LSD to hide the drugs he has, the trip event (triggered by LSD) will now start properly, after the police intervention is over.
25. Problem with masturbation in the College toilet
Fixed a problem with masturbation in college toilet taking too much in-game time.
26. Problem with peeking in the College toilet
Fixed a problem with peeking in college toilet taking too much in-game time.
27. Fixed missing nun event
Fxed one missing nun event, that was written but most likely wasn't working, or wasn't working properly.
28. Fixed searching in Alexa/Daphne room at night
Players should be able to search the rooms while Alexa/Daphne are asleep.
29. Fixed characters teleporting
During Halloween quest characters were teleporting to City Center, this won't happen anymore.


That's all for now,
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v. 0.3.51 Quality of life update

Ok, so here's a new update. It's quite big, however not with content, but with changes in UI and mechanics. It also fixes (hopefully) the bug with game crashing in 0.3.50. I'm too tired to write a lot, but I wanna say that this update helped me reinvigorate my love for BA. I actually played it couple days ago first time in a year, and it was a blast. So - I want to continue it. And Operation Penetration will be made as an additional content for BA (maybe a DLC), which will end up as an once in a year event or a reoccurring dream. I'll figure it out. Thanks for messages and votes in the poll.

Play online: https://becomealphagame.com

Play offline: mega.nz or gofile.io
Help:
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Changelog:

1. Fixed game crashing and hanging

So in last version I fucked up one thing and the game was crashing and hanging during loading saves and entering supporter code. I think it's fixed. I tested it on 3 year old saves, and the game runs smoothly now. Let me know if that's true.

2. A lot of rewrites in the core systems

So basically I've made A LOT of small changes on my end, which I won't detail, because you don't even notice them. However - you might notice bugs. So please - if you found one, send it over with a save game on game's Discord.

3. A LOT of the Early Access content is now public

  • XXXmas quest
  • Halloween quest
  • Bad Karma quest
  • Gloryhole in the college
  • Amia's event in the college toilet
  • Amia's event in the classroom
  • Nina is bored event
  • College locker room
  • The Slaughterhouse club with all the activities and events
  • Two new random events at the Therapist
  • One new random events at the Doctor
  • Two additional girls up for confession
  • Asian hooker in the park

4. Changing names of characters during game

So from now players can change their names mid-game, or change names of other characters whenever they want (and not only after they first meet the other character). This took me a LOOOONG TIME to do, and some old players might remember my attempts at doing that feature, but it was harder than it sounds. I'm hopeful that current implementation will finally stick around.

5. Skippable exams

Basically the exams are skippable for supporters now. If you want to make your game harder - you can turn it off in the settings too. This should make it easy to keep the college rating up to easier keep the allowance high from dad.

6. The Fap Mode multipliers also work on sex experience

Basically, players will get more experience for using sex positions, and will unlock star bonuses quicker, so you don't have to grind that much (that 300% bonus makes it go up really fucking fast).

7. A lot of changes in the sex mechanic

Basically, as a preparation to Operation Penetration, I rewrote big parts of the sex mechanic. The updates are not that visible on your side, however couple things might be:
I changed the way kink works - before it was just adding +1 to orgasm for the sex partner for each position from kink category. So if the position was as default -1 orgasm, the kink made it 0. This seemed like it's not fun, like - you have a position in kink category, and it doesn't change character's orgasm - I didn't like that. I've changed it so now all the positions in kink category still get +1, but ALSO the result can't be smaller than 1 (so each position from kink category always gives at least 1 orgasm to the partner).
I lowered starting vigour of the player (was 10, now 6) but added bigger vigour bonuses (up to 8 if I remember correctly) from player levels. So it's worth levelling up even more. I also raised the starting orgasm of all characters that you fuck by 1 and added some additional modificators to the whole thing (for example hookers get huge bonus to orgasm, so it's easier to make them finish).
I also changed the way endings of sex work, when things go wrong (like you stop mid sex), before there was a very negative short scene. Now there's couple different small scenarios there depending on different things (eg. characters who like the player more will be understanding, also hookers will not make a problem if you stop the sex or don't make them cum - not all of them at least).
Last but not least, I've made slight UI adjustment to the sex buttons - if the vigour of the position is -1 (which is the default for most positions) it will be invisible for better visibility until you hover over the button!
All in all those changes are supposed to make the sex slightly more engaging in a fun way (hopefully).

8. UI updates on the quests screen

So also next to each quest you can see a small avatar of the lead character for this quest. I think it makes it way nicer to look around. Also, the quests to be discovered are now randomized, which works way better. And I adjusted everything to mobile.

9. Side dialogs during the activities

I've completely rewrote the system that adds small interactions with other characters when you do an activity while those characters are in the same location. Basically - if you clean a garden or mop the floor when Daphne or Alexa are there - they will comment. This is not new, however now I've rewrote the code that creates those side dialogs, and now they will happen in the entire game. So basically if you write a test when Amia or Karma is there - you will get this small interaction.

10. Unification of the random events in college classes

Before each class had it's own small tree of events, now they have the same, so the events only depend on whether the characters are there or not, and not on the class they're in. This makes it easier to launch quests etc..

11. Teleport

During Late Night, when player has to go to sleep, there will be a new button on the bottom of each location that will teleport him home easy.

12. UI changes in location headers

Basically, you can now see the "Week of the ..." information. Also made some slight visual and color adjustments.

13. UI changes on the characters and player screens

Basically some people didn't know where the trait is - I've changed the layout slightly to mark the trait on the screen better.

Other changes

14. Changes in the flirt system
I've rewrote big parts of the flirt system, it will be now slightly harder (one mistake - you're out). It was way too easy before imho.
15. Changes in the allowance system
I've raised a cap for the allowance to 600 bucks (daddy gotta pay for those hookers!), at least until the game doesn't have some better system to earn money. I also removed the first/second week allowance bonus, instead during first 2 weeks dad doesn't take away money for bad grades.
16. Changed the odds on accidental backdoor event during sex
Choosing the right hole is now easier - the event will happen less often;)
17. Changed "Religious Freak" trait to "God Freak"
Basically it's shorter and it fits better in the interface.
18. Some rewrites in the quests
  • Shopping with a smile
  • Make the pool upper class again!
  • College here I come
  • Phisio with Rose

19. Prestige gym will now be open until Evening
20. Fap mode settings moved to the top of Settings

Bug fixes

21. Fixes in using effects during se
22. Fixed a bug in strike system with doubling lines
23. Fixed notifications not appearing during events and quests
24. Fixed asian hooker missing orgasm clips
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v. 0.3.50 Grave is back!

Ok, so here's a new update. The changelog is below, and if you're interested in my rambling about what happened during last couple months - go here: https://subscribestar.adult/posts/1010653 

Play online: https://becomealphagame.com


Changelog:

1. New Supporter Code

There's a new Supporter Code to turn on the Fap Mode for our patrons. You can get the new code here: Get Supporter Code

2. Quests to be discovered

On the quests screen players are now able to view quests that they didn't yet discovered in the game, as a hint that there still might be some content left to explore.

3. Turning off images

So you can now turn off the videos and/or images so that you can play the game in public. You can find this in the settings.

Bug fixes

4. Fix for Kelly's "Twisted sister" quest
I (hopefully) fixed a bug with church activities that could result in regressing the quest or locking it.
5. Fix for Kelly's "Higher powers" quest
Fix for players getting stuck on meeting Kelly in the church - there were already several attempts at fixing this problem, but I finally think I found the solution!
6. Another fix for Kelly's "Higher powers" quest
Another fix for Kelly's quest - if player got a priest robe from a quest, then lost it - the quest shouldn't get stuck anymore.
7. Fix for Daphne's "Different kind of meatbags" quest
It's a small "comfort of life" fix - when player carries the meat bags to the car - the cellar door should remain open now.
8. Fix for breaking into character's room
There was a problem which, if player broke into a room of Daphne or Alexa, couldn't break in any other room until he slept. This should be fixed now.

Thanks,
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Missed me? [poll about the future of BA]

Ok dudes, so the good news is - the new update, 0.3.50, will be out in a moment. It's a small one, but treat it as my "I'm back" update and expect more in max 2 weeks. There is a quest for Rose coming that I started ages ago. Maybe something else if I it goes quickly.
Ok. So now - the bad part - which is my whiny rambling (if you just want a changelog of the update it will be in the next post). I'll try to make it compact, though it took me many days to unpack from my head everything that ended up in this fucking post. So if you're sane you probably should stop reading now. And if you're only interested in the future of BA, and not about Grave vs. the world stuff - scroll down to the last part - there's a summary of all my blabber and a poll. 

So what was happening?

Last time I was mentioning my depression and many other things, so I want to give you a small recap, especially that I know many of you have similar problems. 
So I started taking SNRI antidepressants in August and the results were actually pretty fucking good. I took SSRI before (when my fucking life collapsed 5 years ago) but never felt any results (besides a constant fucking diarrhea), however with this new stuff I actually for the first time in a while felt like doing stuff with my life again, instead of being a stoned ape in front of the computer.
However there were side effects too - my dick stopped working, which was absolutely tragic! I could only get it up on Viagra and I just couldn't finish during sex. I'm actually really fond of my dick, it's a damn good dick, my best wingman in many most beautiful moments of my life, so I felt like a total asshole giving up on him. Fortunately, I stopped taking the meds in December and the dick came back with a vengeance so - phew!

Random disclaimer

Ok, now you're thinking - "god damn, this is a porn game, what's this shit even have to do with anything?" Well, I know, man. But, honestly, I can't help it. Think about me like this - I'm just this strange dude, living somewhere far away in the world. Your friendly perv with an overactive brain! Basically how it works is this - unless I'm totally straight about stuff, I always feel dishonest, and that shit always spirals out of control in my head. So - fuck that. I'm going balls out with stuff from now on. Deal with it or scroll down to the summary;) 

I was going somewhere with this

While taking the meds, I finally started working on couple private projects. And when I say "started working" I mean like I grinded on it everyday like a fucking mule since September. And I finished concept phase for three separate ideas in December. I'm not gonna say what those projects are, as I want to keep my name away from BA, but it's something that I was thinking about for a while, and I'm kinda proud with how it turned out. 
However, I just finished the concept phase, which means I'm still far away from monetizing those projects. Now I either need to find an investor, or some people to do it with me, or maybe I will have to do the prototypes on my own.... It's shitload of work in every direction. A year, at least, maybe even two. And to get those projects really going, even just one of them, I need to support myself.

Grave meets real life again, and it goes bad again 

So the big problem is that, as I was running happily into the horizon on SNRIs, working on my fucking dream projects, my funds were running lower and lower, and the finish line was moving further and further away. And suddenly - I was in debt again. Not a major one, but still - red alert. 
Let's be honest, the game was my main source of income, and I wasn't much on the job market since 5 fucking years, outside of couple lucky shots for quick cash. I mean, jobs in IT fly everywhere, and I actually made an attempt to get in, but each interview goes like this - "So what were you doing for last 5 years, sir?" I was writing a fucking porn game, that's what, fuck off. My ENTIRE coding experience is that fucking game.
But it's not even the worst part. I feel I've become such a strange dude during those couple years living a bizarre double life - being a porn game creator at night, and trying to piece my fucking world back together during days. Add to that multiple depressions filled with weed and pointless hookups on Tinder (or way worse than Tinder). I mean, I have some good fucking stories to tell (have you ever fucked a hooker with square head like in Minecraft? Well, I did!) but it all just made me drift further and further away from civilization. And even though I kind of stabilized during last year, when I think about working with new people, being there, smiling, and repeating the same bullshit lines over and over - my social anxiety hits me with a brick in the head. 
And I actually know why I feel this anxiety. It's not about people. I'm ok with people, mostly. It's about me. Because I fucking want to finally do something of my own. Something I can be proud of. And I know I can, I feel I can, I just need more fucking time.

So here's the summary 

(not really, I just wanted to get your attention, because this part is important for me)
I'm thinking about coming back to doing porn games as a regular part time thing. The reason is simple - I can work on it 2-3 days a week while working on my other stuff. 
HOWEVER. There's a couple problems with that and I really want to lay down what my fucking head is producing for me, so bare with me. Basically:
First problem is very practical - the project became huge. There's so many storylines, so much text, clips, locations, characters. Don't get me wrong - I'm a planner, and I do have a plan for everything, and I know how it all supposed to end with the player, Ash, Mia, and this creepy dude, No-one. I have some quests started, including Corgis, that I wanna finally add to the game, because I was working on them for so fucking long. I even have a crazy idea for a narrator's character to have his own exit...
BUT. Fuck, I'm not even at 33% of the content I planned and there's already so much stuff. I feel like my ambition totally played me into a corner. Wherever I look there's something unfinished, not fully developed, and I'm alone alone here now, Loco and BobbyPeru moved on, so I'm only one dude, how much can I do, realistically?
I looked back at the game's history. I started this project to learn coding. At the beginning it was so small, just Daphne and Alexa and player in one house. It was really fun to write. Then I expanded outside the house, and it was a bit more complicated, but I had fun too, with Mia and Ash and Rose. But then I added college, and the city location and the club and police station, and it just started to go sideways. 
At the beginning I was like - fuck yea, I have so much space now. I told myself the game will be like this gonzo life simulator, this fucking place in the internet when you can get drunk, high, and go into the fucking blurry unknown, roam around like an animal, fucking hookers, girls, boys, you name it, and knowing that you're in your perverted safe space. Buuuut. This is a fucking text game. Everything needs content. There's so many options now. So many things can happen, so many characters you can meet, fuck, etc.. It all needs to work. And the stuff I loved about it - mostly the Daphne storyline (I know her breasts are repulsing for some, but there's something in the eyes of this Jewish girl that makes me... creative, lol) - is now buried with so much other things, that all need continuation. My fucking crazy ambition turned this game into a porn RPG, and I just barely handle it now. It's fucking overwhelming.
SECOND problem (yes, we're merely at second, pay attention, buddy, please) -  the porn. Like - for the record - I'm a perv. And I'm proud of it, no reason to shy away from it. But the problem is - writing BA requires me to look at porn way too much. I mean, if it's one day a week, that's fine, but if it's a constant feed it just fucks up my mojo, my pervy side goes into a strange direction, and my libido goes to the trash because I jack off all the time to handle the fucking porn. That's not great. 
Fortunately, this problem has a partial solution. I have someone who agreed to help me on that front. Buuuut, this person is only able to help me with cutting huge amount of clips for character's sex positions. Basically - if I ask "hey, I need more sex clips for Daphne" - I'm getting that, split into folders, all nice and tidy. But this deal doesn't include content for sex scenes during quests or events. Like finding Daphne tied up in the garden etc.. And looking for this stuff is hard, man. Like really time consuming. You first spend hours looking for stuff, and then adjust the quest to fit what you managed to find. I'd call it a nightmare, if it weren't for my constant hard on while doing it. 
And you know what also fucks me up? Looking for the photos of those girls CLOTHED. I mean, you can't imagine how hard sometimes is to find a pornstar in clothing that you could use for normal scenes. It's sooo annoying. Somehow, with old pornstars like Daphne Rosen it was easier, but some of those new girls - you spend hours.
Third problem (almost there, honestly dude, thanks for being such a legend) - I started thinking what I really like doing in BA these days. And it is, surprisingly, coding and interface. Don't get me wrong, I love to write a fucked up quest for Daphne, but coding a new feature, or polishing the UI, makes me instantly interested and hooked. I really like the engine I built. I mean, it's absolutely absurd and fucked up the way I coded it, I now understand how it works way better and I would never do it like that again. But I've polished it to the point where I know every fucking corner, and it's working pretty good together.

Ok, Grave, where are you going with this?

What I'm saying is this - on one side - there are things in BA that I still want to do, but I feel that I lost the direction a bit, and if I were to continue, we would really need to have some sort of a discussion what it is you guys actually like about the game, and which way it should go.

Or there's another way.

I'm gonna pitch you an idea I had, for a BA "spin off" that I've been thinking about. And, be honest, because I'm actually not sure if it's a good idea. It sounds like fun for me, but it might still be something that no one wants.
So basically before my hiatus I was experimenting with different sex mechanics in BA. Like giving players boosts during sex and stuff. And it didn't really work for me, it was too complicated, fucked up the gameplay of BA, which is more story oriented. However, it kind of worked cool on its own. I like how it turned sex into this challenge, almost like a Mortal Kombat game, but with porn, lol. Where you could have combos, finishes, fatalities. 
So, I had this idea to make a smaller fun "side project" that would be based on the BA game engine, that I've built through the years, but with much expanded sex mechanics. It would be called "Operation Penetration" and the way it would work is that the player is chosen as a participant in a sex tournament, where basically you need to fuck your enemy until she cums. And it's really an entire tournament, like you start in group stage, and you need to fuck your way to the top, gather experience in each position for the bonuses. And your enemies have weak spots, that you can get to know and use, stuff like that. Other contestants (other guys in the tournament) might have some things about them as well, like maybe you can invest points into fucking them up between the fights or sth. 
And the interesting part is - so much of it is already done. Like, I have an engine that has all the story features I might need. And a sex mechanic that is doing exactly what I need, and just needs expanding. And I have a whole library of 30+ characters (all the main characters from BA, hookers, some random encounters - there's so much) with different sex clips for each positions. I'm like 75% there already, and the stuff that's missing is the stuff I'd love to do - which is adjusting the engine and interface to make it work, and writing some bare story to wrap it up. I feel it'd be like 2-3 months tops to the beta version.
The main game loop would be simple - buff your stats, go into the match, fuck your enemy, gather experience, buy gear, buff stats, and so on;) And maybe some small events, like judge interrupting forced anal or something lol;) Imagine fucking Daphne Rosen or Mia Malkova to a complete orgasmic exhaustion in the fucking sex tournament - lol;)

TO SUM IT UP (this time for real)

Writing stuff for you guys was a privilege, and I'm sorry I'm turning it into a drama, but blame my brain. I see a way forward with this project, but it might be not what you want. And I'm flexible, but I need to hear your voice. What do you guys think is the best way forward?
OPTION 1. If you don't like the idea for "Operation Penetration" at all, I won't do it. I only wanna do it because I think it's fun, if I'm the only one, fuck it. I can focus on BA, just help me with the direction in the comments, because I'm not even sure if you guys are still here, and I'm not talking to an empty hall.
OPTION 2. If you semi like it, but you still prefer BA, I could write "Operation Penetration" in a smaller scale, and in the end attach it to BA as a once-a-year dream sequence or something like that. This mini-game within a game that sometimes hits in, and that'll give me something interesting to do, while I grind through the updates of BA;)
OPTION 3. If you really like it, I can pause BA and focus completely on "Operation Penetration". Make it bigger, with more opponents (which - thanks to the person cutting the porn - would be pretty straight forward), some fucked up events, expanded gameplay. For a "contained" game like that it would be quite doable for me (I think) to make a simple mod system, for players to be able to add their own characters with their own libraries of sex positions and stats.
OPTION 4. And maybe you're just not interested in my stuff anymore? Which is understandable, I was long away. Maybe I should just drop this whole porn game stuff, maybe I'm just not fit to it. Though I have to say, giving up now seems like a bad idea for me. I feel I have something good, that is finally worth fighting for, and I want to use the money from BA to get there.
I leave it guys in your hands. If you want me to focus on BA, comment on what in BA you think is worth expanding, and which parts are not for you.
Thanks,
Grave
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