It has been a bit of time, hasn't it!
Things are going okay, rest assured ^^
There haven't really been any developments since the last post! I'm still home, I'm still safe. All good!~

Its still pretty nerve wracking, mind. As a little peek behind the curtain:
Twice, now, I've shown up to a court hearing, only to have our case be delayed for another two weeks >u>

So there has been a lot of nervousness and panic... Only for things to be passed around to be resolved later.
Its an interesting feeling, really. On the one hand, the panic and worry for the immediate future is gone in that moment. The status quo is maintained, and I get relief from the fear about that.
But on the OTHER hand, I'm denied an actual resolution >u>. The sword of Damocles continues to swing, and I won't know that the long term future holds until later. So theres always still been that underlying "whats going to happen" playing in the back of my mind <u>.

But this coming week should be the end of it, it seems. For better or worse, I won't know until the day of. Lets be optimistic and hope for the better, yeah?~

But yep, thats whats going on with that. I was hoping I'd be able to get the file done before then- so that any potential shake-ups wouldn't keep me from atleast releasing another audio. But its looking less and less likely I'll make that deadline <u>

Speaking of...

The bit I'm sure you care about the most, and for good reason ^.^'

Work on the deep trance file is still going on! I've been cracking away at it for a good while!
The script just breached ~5800 words tonight, which is just about the length of the Doll Collection file!
In case you aren't too familiar with the Doll Collection File (its my favorite, y'know~), it was my longest file, at just over 47 minutes.

And this new file still has a good bit more to go! So it will definitely break that record by a decent bit~
That has just meant its been a lot of work, especially when coming off of a bit of an involuntary break <u>

That really doesn't excuse how long this has been taking, though. Even a file of this length shouldn't be taking anywhere near this long.
I'm really off of my game, I guess. Everything definitely knocked me down a few pegs, and all of these circumstances and difficult feelings and worries have me falling behind on pretty much everything in my life...

But... Even still.... I'm trying to push through it!~
This last week or so I've really doubled down, so hopefully if I can keep with it I can get that script finished soon~.
And thats been good. I'm definitely happy that things seem to be doing a good bit better in that respect. I really want to keep making nice things that folks enjoy!

But yep! Thats the status of that.
The files gonna be a bit of a monster at the end of the day~.
The plan, though, is to make several different cuts of it- having optional version that omit certain sections, so that you're able to get just the right content for you~

If you want to skip the preamble sections, there will be a cut of the file that does that. If you don't want any of the stuff tailored toward beginners, that can be skipped. If you just want the induction and the trigger sections, there will be a version of the file for that- all readily made for you so that the length is tailored to your needs~.

And yeah! Thats how things are going ^^
But like I said, this file is going to be a bit of a monster...
So it will still be a bit of time before its done...

If you haven't already, I want to remind that you ARE totally free to cancel a subscription until I have something for you. I don't mind it, I totally understand! It will always be there for you when the next file drops!

For those who do stick around just to support me a bit, even though I haven't been able to get you anything: I do want you to know that I appreciate it. Every bit counts and makes me feel a bit more secure in devoting myself to these projects.
And I want you to know that it is very, very appreciated.

Of course, if your situation changes- if you can't do that kind of thing: of course do whats best for you. I always will understand. And I'll still be here doing what I do, for as long as I can be ^^

Annnd... yeah, thats everything, I think. I hope I'll have more good news for you soon!

-Jackie ♥

Hello again!
Its been almost a week, right? And I thankfully have good news!

I'm back home!
Seemingly for the long term, but- y'know- knock on wood, and all...

The short version is that the home situation has been temporarily resolved, and I've been able to return safely.
It is still technically up in the air if it will remain that way, but for this very moment I am able to go back to my normal routines, albeit more than a little shaken up.
So yee! Going to try and push myself to get back into the writing, and perhaps streaming, and all that good stuff. And hope that this temporary security becomes more long-lasting >u>

There is the chance things go bad again. It is not certain, and there are things that could change for the worse... But.... I cant let that keep me stagnant, I suppose!


As for the longer, and potentially upsetting, version:
 (If domestic abuse or such things are a triggering topic for you, please don't read below)

So. After the first couple days of struggling and panic and getting stable, we were able to head down to the courthouse to get the ball rolling on giving us safety from my father.
To my surprise, as someone who knows very little about these things, we were quckly able to get a temporary protective order that kept my mother separate from him.

That involves him not being able to contact her, being forced to be a distance away from her and her place of work, and (crucially in the context of this post) being kept away from our house.
I do not have an order of my own, but the bit about the house thankfully means that I myself am safe so long as I'm here or with her <u>.

So I'm finally able to have my bed again, after jumping between hotels and feeling like im burdening other family. And as a bonus: I also have my computer, my recording equipment, I'm able to write more easily- all the good stuff. <u>

The bit that still makes everything up in the air, though, is that this is a temporary order, while we wait and prepare for an actual hearing with a judge and all sorts- who will decide if the order is kept up or changed.

So... There is the chance that the judge rules in favor of my father, and the order is removed- forcing us to flee again.

There is also the chance that the order (and/or the impending divorce process that has been started) could involve the house itself being in dispute in some way. Who knows if we may be forced to sell the place, for example. I don't know- all of this is very new to me...

... And there is also the chance that all of it goes through- we are perfectly legally safe to stay here and be protected in our home... but are unable to pay the bills with one less person working.
That, depressingly, is also possible- and would mean we're back to the drawing board in terms of long-term housing. 

So, with all of that in mind, I'm trying not to get my hopes up too much. I'm trying not to promise things are going to be 100% back to normal in the long term.
But for this moment, I'm back. I'm safe. And I'm happy. The sort of cautious happy where you're trying to enjoy it for as much as you can, while still being wary for if the other shoe will drop.

We'll see. I'll hope as much as I possibly can that things are looking up, and the clouds are truly parting.

But for now?
For now I'm just so damn glad to be home... <u>

- Jackie