Hello again!
Its been almost a week, right? And I thankfully have good news!

I'm back home!
Seemingly for the long term, but- y'know- knock on wood, and all...

The short version is that the home situation has been temporarily resolved, and I've been able to return safely.
It is still technically up in the air if it will remain that way, but for this very moment I am able to go back to my normal routines, albeit more than a little shaken up.
So yee! Going to try and push myself to get back into the writing, and perhaps streaming, and all that good stuff. And hope that this temporary security becomes more long-lasting >u>

There is the chance things go bad again. It is not certain, and there are things that could change for the worse... But.... I cant let that keep me stagnant, I suppose!


As for the longer, and potentially upsetting, version:
 (If domestic abuse or such things are a triggering topic for you, please don't read below)

So. After the first couple days of struggling and panic and getting stable, we were able to head down to the courthouse to get the ball rolling on giving us safety from my father.
To my surprise, as someone who knows very little about these things, we were quckly able to get a temporary protective order that kept my mother separate from him.

That involves him not being able to contact her, being forced to be a distance away from her and her place of work, and (crucially in the context of this post) being kept away from our house.
I do not have an order of my own, but the bit about the house thankfully means that I myself am safe so long as I'm here or with her <u>.

So I'm finally able to have my bed again, after jumping between hotels and feeling like im burdening other family. And as a bonus: I also have my computer, my recording equipment, I'm able to write more easily- all the good stuff. <u>

The bit that still makes everything up in the air, though, is that this is a temporary order, while we wait and prepare for an actual hearing with a judge and all sorts- who will decide if the order is kept up or changed.

So... There is the chance that the judge rules in favor of my father, and the order is removed- forcing us to flee again.

There is also the chance that the order (and/or the impending divorce process that has been started) could involve the house itself being in dispute in some way. Who knows if we may be forced to sell the place, for example. I don't know- all of this is very new to me...

... And there is also the chance that all of it goes through- we are perfectly legally safe to stay here and be protected in our home... but are unable to pay the bills with one less person working.
That, depressingly, is also possible- and would mean we're back to the drawing board in terms of long-term housing. 

So, with all of that in mind, I'm trying not to get my hopes up too much. I'm trying not to promise things are going to be 100% back to normal in the long term.
But for this moment, I'm back. I'm safe. And I'm happy. The sort of cautious happy where you're trying to enjoy it for as much as you can, while still being wary for if the other shoe will drop.

We'll see. I'll hope as much as I possibly can that things are looking up, and the clouds are truly parting.

But for now?
For now I'm just so damn glad to be home... <u>

- Jackie

Its that time, once again~.
The next file has been decided, but first lets get to all that nice housekeeping ^^

Clicker Trained musings
I hope everyone enjoyed the most recent file!
It definitely was a lot of fun to try and work out how to make clicker training into a hypnosis thing~
I tried to tie triggers and clickers and training all together, and it was really neat in the end, I think. I really enjoyed returning to petplay sort of themes~.

I'd love to hear what people think of this one. Has anyone gotten a chance to try out the trigger, yet?~. 
I really should give it a try myself, sometime <//u//>

Streaming
I've decided to try and stream more often! Its been great fun trying to play all the DMC games in order, and I'm getting a bit into the swing of streaming more often~.
Im currently trying to go for atleast one session a week, though I'm starting to realize I might need to raise that if I ever hope to hit affiliate <u>.
Theres so much I want to do once I get there, y'know? Set up point redeems for silly dumb ideas, get my shock collar integrated so people can mess around with me, all kinds of fun stuff ^^
Still, we're a long way from that <u>. Gonna need more followers,,,

Commissions
The work on commissions has slowed my progress on things a little bit, but not too bad- I'm happy to say. Its been a great big challenge, but I'd like to think its been worth it to get this kind of experience.
(and, y'know, I need the money <u>)

The first animation has already been posted, and you can check it out here!
Just sent in the first draft of another one, fingers crossed that it goes well ^^

Theres another, bigger project that I was commissioned a good two months or so ago, too, but no updates on that yet <u>. Its certainly something a lot different, but I honestly had a lot of fun once I got into it!
Anxious to show it off. We'll see how things go.

What else is up in Jackie's life?
Its honestly hard to keep track anymore <u>.
It alternates real hard from being monstrously hectic, to very slow and chill.

New housing issues are one thing. Issues with septic tanks and such... Bills I can't currently pay ^~^'. ...Just gonna try my best not to think about it, y'know...?
Then I got word that my disability application was denied...  Stress over many many things, a lot of struggles among family and friends...

... But theres always silver linings. Thats what I try to hang on to. I've taken up reading again, and am currently getting through House Of Leaves! I've found a whiskey that I really like. I've gotten to spend more time with my girlfriend and her pals here and there. Got back into Dwarf Fortress after a long absence. Started doing roleplays again with some friends.

Focusing a bit more on my health. Managing to finally get a bit more organized. Pushing myself to do a little bit more every day...
Theres a give and take, essentially. There always is. Just gotta get through it one step at a time. Brick by brick building up something good.

In the words of one of my recent favorite musicians, The Narcissist Cookbook,
"This is how we get better."


... Anyway, sappy stuff aside for now, its time to get to...

The results of the poll are in, and they kind of surprised me!

Another tie?! Seems so!
I deliberated a whole lot over what to do about this, trying to figure out what would be the better option...
... And then I remembered that there was a tie last time, too. And one of these options was up there, aswell...

So it only feels fitting to go with the one who lost the last tie-breaker, right? ♥
That means...

The next audio is going to be a Cow-girl hypnosis file~
A trigger to make you feel like a needy 'human cow' who desperately needs to be milked~
Horny, bimbo-like feminization... Restricted to simple, animalistic, thoughts perhaps?
All while you feel a set of large and leaky beasts grow in... Feeling so in need of release that you have no choice but to be obedient cattle for your owners~

I'll still need to nail down the specifics, of course, but thats the plan so far~. Going to get started on it soon enough! Hope you're excited ^^



Annnd thats everything for this month!
I'll leave you off with that little april-fools video I made a little while ago x3. I'll attach it to this post incase you haven't seen it!
Just a silly little thing that I decided to whip together into a video so that you'd all have something to giggle at ^^

Until next time!~
-Jackie