You must be 18+ to visit this website
The content on this website is AGE RESTRICTED
Please confirm you are at least 18 years old of age. Otherwise leave the website.
Subscribe
Message

Subscription Tiers

FREE
A Venerable Guest

Well, hello! You are still kind of undecided, aren't you? Why don't you come in and have a look around?

  • Choose this tier if you don't wish to support the Diaries at this time, but would like to receive notifications about the free posts published here.
105 subscribers
Unlock
$5
USD monthly
A Beloved Pet

All right, cutie... You can stay with us and watch what we're up to, as long as you don't make any noise. Pets are to be seen and not to be heard, remember?

  • You'll get to see all story posts published here, but expect no further privileges. You're just a pet, after all.
1 subscriber
Unlock
$10
USD monthly
A Trusty Friend

Welcome, friend! Take a place by the fireplace, we are right in the middle of a very... captivating discussion. We'd like to hear your opinion on the matter.

  • You get access to every post published here.
  • You get a vote in what topics should new stories focus on, and what direction episodic stories should take.
  • Once a long-form story is concluded it will be made available as an ebook for Friends and higher tiers.
1 subscriber
Unlock
$25
USD monthly
A Special Someone

I'm so happy you made it to the party, dear! Come, I've prepared a little something for you in the playroom. I'm sure she'll be much to your liking...

  • As a Special Someone you get everything Friends do, and more! You can commission me a short story each month. You can detail your characters and scenes as much as you like, or just give me a picture and leave the rest to my imagination. You can even task me with doing a long-form story that you will recieve in monthly episodes.
  • I'm happy to satisfy almost all kinks. I can do any gender in any role. If you know my fiction, you know that I have written everything from the sweet and sensual to what could be best qualified as sexual horror. Children and corpses are taboo... but not much else I can think of.
  • Please make sure to send your request in time. My schedule is quite rigid so if you miss your chance in a given month I can't guarantee that I can make up for it in the next.
0 subscribers
Unlock

Features

  • Support my free BDSM fiction published on disgracediaries.bdsmlr.com and .reblogme.com
  • Get access to exclusive long-form stories available only on SubscribeStar and help shaping their narrative
  • Commission your own ideas and I'll turn them into hot, high-quality prose
Oberon van Hart
Public post

Use Me


Her predicament was simple but didn’t take long to prove quite intolerable. If she tried to rise from her knees, she pulled on the anal pear locked into her back hole, since it had its base tied to her ankles. If she tried to lower her arms, she tightened the noose around her neck and started to choke. And if she tried to close her jaws, she drove the nasal studs of her ring gag even deeper into her nostrils.

So she stayed on her knees obediently, arms raised high, mouth wide open, shamelessly offering her body for any kind of use her husband could devise. And he did his best to make good use of the opportunity. Even with her sight and hearing taken away, she could tell he was having great fun.

He started with her breasts, looping rope around their bases and turning them into orbs of rose-colored flesh, both perfectly round except for the erect nipples sticking out of them. Breast bondage was one of his favorites, and for good reason: when tied like this, her boobs turned delightfully sensitive. Even a playful twist of her nipples or the squeezing of her tits elicited shrieks of pain; the strike of the cane and the lash of the whip was nothing short of excruciating. So of course he tested both on her thoroughly. Soon she was screaming and wriggling around mindlessly, choking herself with the noose and yanking harshly on the wicked device stretching her butt.

She was moments away from passing out from the lack of breath when the torture finally stopped. A pair of hands grabbed her head instead and an erect cock started fucking her throat. 

She tried to be a good little cocksucking slut she usually was, but with her pierced tongue captured by the gag, she couldn't provide much of a service. Even worse, the rope around her neck made her gag and choke all the while, like she was a total rookie in deepthroating. She knew she would be punished for her clumsiness and he proved her right: soon the hands let go of her head and grabbed on her aching boobs instead. She wanted to scream in pain, but the cock ramming into her throat again and again barely allowed her to produce as much as a whimper.

It took him quite some time to reach the point where he couldn’t hold back any longer and shot his load down her throat. 

She hoped that his orgasm would buy her some rest, but she was dead wrong. Well, as a matter of fact, he did take a break after emptying his balls, like he usually would - he left her alone for what must have been at least an hour. 

But not before massaging cayenne cream into her pussy and bruised tits. 

That made sure that she didn’t have any respite from the pain while he was away. The cream was diabolically effective, making her feel like her cunt and boobs were covered in hellfire. The urge to break free and get rid of it soon became unbearable, even though her efforts to do so only worsened her predicament. By the time he came back she was weeping hysterically, even though the noose around her neck was pulled so tight she barely made a sound.

So he thought it would be interesting to see if he could, despite all the distress she was in, still make her cum. He knelt in front of her and started to massaging her pussy with the vibrating wand, occasionally squeezing or slapping her boobs to keep things lively. At first she was sure she’d never get anywhere near an orgasm, not with her tits and cunt hurting so bad, not being on the brink of suffocation all the while. But her Master knew her better than she knew herself. It took what felt like an eternity, but she did get past the edge at last, trembling, jerking, screaming, tugging on the pear and the noose at the same time. 

After that it all became kind of a blur. 

By that point she just didn’t seem to have any strength left to hold her position. Her arms were now trembling constantly, pulling the noose tighter and forcing her to fight for every sip of air. 

She was brought back from the brink of faint by a sharp pain as the whip came down on her butt.

She took the beating silently and without much struggling, trying to focus on her breathing instead. She didn’t produce as much as a moan when he poured hot wax over her tortured tits. She barely even twitched when he placed the jagged clamps onto her nipples and labia. 

She knew he had always been turned on by the idea of owning a fuckdoll. A faceless, nameless, latex-clad thing, hyperfeminine yet subhuman, a living sex toy he can use and abuse to his liking. A creature that experiences pleasure and pain the same way a human does, but has no will of her own and exerts no resistance. Well, he had his fuckdoll now… and she could only hope the reality matched up with his fantasies.

When his rock hard dong penetrated her throat again, she knew she didn’t disappoint.

This time he didn’t cum into her mouth. Soon her ties were undone and her wrists cuffed behind her back. She was tossed to the floor face down, onto her aching boobs, eliciting an agonizing shriek from her. 

But her comfort was clearly of no concern to him this time. He held her down tight while removing the pear from her anus, only to replace it with his cock immediately. He grabbed onto her freshly whipped butt cheeks and started fucking her bruised asshole hard, rolling her back and forth on her still-bound breasts.

By the time he came inside her she already fainted from the pain. But it was okay. A fuckdoll doesn’t need any brain functions anyway. 


It took her two days to regain her strength and over a week for her body to fully heal. Her husband acted uber-romantic all the while, cuddling, kissing and bringing breakfast to bed. At first he even insisted on doing the housework in her stead, and it took her quite a few days to convince him she was now feeling well enough to do it herself.

They never really talked the session through, acting like it was all just a strange dream. She could tell he was undecided between asking her forgiveness for treating her in such a brutal fashion and admitting he couldn’t wait to do it again. He did tie her up and spank her a few times, but only in the bedroom - the door of his dreaded underground dungeon remained closed. 

In the end it took her two weeks to get fed up with the lovey dovey shit. And one day, as soon as he left for work, she went back to the dungeon to prepare herself the same way she did the first time. 

When she slapped the cuffs on her wrists, crossing the point of no return, she felt a terrified shiver crawling up her spine. Her body inadvertently went tense with panic, flexing against her restraints, yanking on the noose around her neck and the pear locked into her back hole. 

She took a few deep breaths, trying to calm herself, trying to think of all the pleasure her owner will find in her suffering. 

“Use me, Sir” she thought, her pussy slowly getting damp with arousal. “Use me like last time, use me in any way you want. Please, Sir, I beg you. Please use your fuckdoll again.”


Comments  loading...
Like(3)
Dislike(0)
Sign Up or Log In to comment on this post
Oberon van Hart

How would you punish pride?

Comments
Like(0)
Dislike(0)
Posted for $10, $25 tiers
Unlock Tier
Oberon van Hart
Public post

Coming back, going free


My dear (and incredibly loyal) subscribers,

If I had even a fleeing suspicion about all the distractions heading my way when I started this site last April, I would have probably delayed it. In retrospect I’m glad I didn’t, because it helped weathering the storm financially quite a lot, not even mentioning the great conversations I had with some of you. But I also made promises I failed to deliver on time again and again, and that is still a heavy burden on my conscience.

This is what will happen now.

- I have set up a free subscriber tier. All upcoming posts will be available for this tier until I feel like I compensated you for the delays. You are all welcome to switch to it now. (Free members will lose access to already published stories, though).
- The $5 tier retains access to the previously published stories and the $10 tier retains voting rights, so nothing changes there. However…
- I not only ask but outright implore the $25 tier members (my commissioners) to drop down that tier immediately. I’m owing you so many stories already, please don’t pay me for more until I deliver them! Furthermore, I’d actually like to remove that tier for good and take only one-off commissions from then on, if and when I have the time for them. Unfortunately, however, SubscribeStar doesn’t allow a tier to be removed as long as there are any members in it.

The point is, my highest priority right now is not making money but catching up with myself and working out a schedule I can keep. 

The idea is the following:

- I’ve launched a new mini-series called Sinners that is focused on the seven cardinal sins. There will be seven voting sessions (Pride, Greed, Gluttony, Lust, Envy, Sloth and Wrath) where you can decide what is the best way, in your opinion, to penalize that vice. Along with a prologue and an epilogue that will make nine chapters, just long enough to be published as an ebook. 
- I now have an artwork pipeline producing results I actually like (one example is the one I made for the cover of Sinners), but it’s still rather slow (4-6 hours per image). You can probably expect some stories to be published with smaller monochrome illustrations rather than with full-blown color artworks - I’m a copywriter by trade, after all. The purpose of my images should be to convey an atmosphere rather than to provide an artistic value on their own, especially if the latter demands more time than what I can feasibly invest into them.
- I also experimented around with AI generated NSFW art. The tools are improving quickly, but the results they provide are still too generic. Even worse, AI still sucks at understanding the contorted poses BDSM art often requires. That said, I now have a couple dozen interesting images that will allow me to take some detours from the main profile of the site and publish some flash fiction pieces more in line with my old BDSMLR work.

I guess that will be all for now. The voting post for Pride will be up shortly, and then I’ll be answering your private messages at last.
Comments  loading...
Like(1)
Dislike(0)
Sign Up or Log In to comment on this post
Oberon van Hart
Public post

Sinners - Prologue


“Confess” the Mother Superior says.

“I confess I have sinned, mother!” Sister Dolorosa squeaks as the leather whip strikes her buttocks again and again.. “I’m a slut! I’m a filthy sinful slut, mother, I’m a dirty little whore. I’ve fucked with dozens of men, more than I could count. I’ve fucked two, three or more men at the same time. I’ve blown off strangers in bathrooms and back alleys. Oh please forgive me, Mother, for I have sinned…”

“Confess” the Mother superior repeats, fondling her round breasts. “Did you take pleasure in your lecherousness?”

“Yes, oh yes! I loved every second of it! I missed no chance to have my fuckholes filled. I had myself fucked in the pussy, and I had myself fucked in the ass. I had my butt fucked until I could barely sit! And if I couldn’t get someone else to do it, I did it myself. Not a day passed when I didn’t have three orgasms or more…”

“Disgusting” the Mother Superior spits, her fingers reaching under her leather mini skirt. “One more turn.”

Two pairs of hands grabs the vise holding Dolorosa’s boobs captive and start to turn its screws. The girl’s eyes rolls back in pain and a scream escapes past her lips as the wooden jaws bite down even harder on her breasts, its dull metal teeth sinking into her skin. At the same time, the rope looped around her waist and tied to the wicked instrument cuts into her pussy even deeper.

“Nooo!” Dolorosa pleads. “Please, Mother, have mercy on me!”

“Confess, my daughter!” the older woman purrs. “Do you miss your sinful days of old? Would you sin again, were you given the chance?”

“No!” Dolorosa moans. “You have to believe me, Mother! I realized the error of my ways and I will be a faithful member of our venerable convent! I will eat your pussy… I will drink your pee… I will lick your dirty ass clean! Please forgive me, Mother! I will be your obedient slave, just please have mercy on me!”

“Gag her” the Mother Superior says. “I’ve heard enough.”

A huge black rubber ball gag is strapped into Dolorosa’s mouth, muffling her pleas. 

“One last turn. Then keep whipping her until I tell you to stop” the Mother Superior declares. She orders Sister Agnes to kneel, lifting her skirt, and pulling her head between her thighs. She leans against the wall; a wide, contented smile appears on her face as Agnes’s tongue starts to tease her fat clitoris. But she keeps her eyes on Dolorosa, watching the girl’s tortured body go rigid with pain again and again as the whip goes down on her buttocks. 

Seeing a wayward soul cleansed of her sins makes her blood run hot like nothing else.

Sister Dolorosa receives thirty-seven lashes before the Mother Superior can’t hold back her orgasm any longer; her thighs start to tremble and an ecstatic moan escapes her lips. But the whipping goes on, of course, until she manages to regain her composure and orders Sister Regina to stop. 

She smooths down her skirt and steps to Sister Dolorosa. She wipes the sweat and tears off her face, and examines the whip marks covering her ass. Sister Regina did an excellent job; it should take quite a few days before Dolorosa can sit comfortably again, and even longer for the scars to disappear. Her big boobs are both heavily deformed and discolored by the cruel device capturing them, making them wonderfully sensitive; she gives her nipples a hard twist and watches gleefully as Dolorosa’s eyes fill with tears again. 

“I don’t believe you, slut” she says. “I don’t believe you feel regret, real, burning, tormenting regret for what you are. But don’t worry. You are going nowhere, and I will stop at nothing, absolutely nothing, to make you feel exactly that. Whether it will take a week, a month or a year… I will break you. You still love yourself too much and love me too little, but soon it will be the other way around. And then at last you can be my slave.”

She waves the sisters out of the cell, then puts her hand on the light switch and gives Dolorosa a wide smile. “We’ll continue from here tomorrow.”

The lights go out, the steel door slams shut and Dolorosa is left alone in the dark with her suffering. She flexes against her chains and sends a desperate, agonizing scream into her gag.  

But whatever meager sound she manages to get through the rubber ball dies down immediately, and no answer comes. The heavy stone walls of the convent surround her like a crypt, locking her into blind, cold silence, making her feel like she was buried alive. 

And in a sense, she is buried alive. She is now dead to the world - no one out there is missing her, no one is coming to her rescue. They have seen plenty enough of her insufferable personality not to want her back. That’s why she was cast out and condemned to a fate worse than death. That’s why she was entrusted to the care of the Order of the Weeping Virgin. 

That’s how she became a Sister of Suffering. 


Comments  loading...
Like(1)
Dislike(0)
Sign Up or Log In to comment on this post
Oberon van Hart

Bunny’s First Christmas

Comments
Like(2)
Dislike(0)
Posted for $5, $10, $25 tiers
Unlock Tier
Oberon van Hart

Kitten's Christmas

Comments
Like(3)
Dislike(0)
Posted for $5, $10, $25 tiers
Unlock Tier
View next posts (6 / 70)

Creator Stats

106 subscribers
70 posts

Goals

$167 of $300
per month
At this point you are paying my rent - another significant step towards the end goal of doing Disgrace Diaries full-time.
$150.0
THE GOAL
REACHED!
150 bucks is a noticable increase in my monthly income, allowing me to take less freelancer jobs and have more time for Disgrace Diaries. From that point I should be able to accept more commissions per month.

Other Creators

WE USE COOKIES

SubscribeStar and its trusted third parties collect browsing information as specified in the Privacy Policy and use cookies or similar technologies for analysis and technical purposes and, with your consent, for functionality, experience, and measurement as specified in the Cookies Policy.

Your Privacy Choices

We understand and respect your privacy concerns. However, some cookies are strictly necessary for proper website's functionality and cannon be denied.

Optional cookies are configurable. Disabling some of those may make related features unavailable.

We do NOT sell any information obtained through cookies to third-party marketing services.