I know I've been absent and I'm sorry I've been unable to stream or post anything for the past several weeks, but I wanted to post an update to let everyone know where I've been. A while back I had to go to the hospital when I couldn't keep any food or water down for a couple days. A neighbor at the RV park agreed to look after my cats then dropped me off at the hospital with a change of clothes and my computer (I always assume a prolonged stay) and after about 2-3 hours of waiting, I tried to drink some water a stranger brought me from the fountain and was subsequently checked in when a few minutes later I threw up in the waiting room. They gave me an IV to rehydrate and while I waited to get tests done, I started messaging my insurance to get the ball rolling on the claims and bills this will incur.

Turns out I have inflammation in my esophagus and a few other places through my digestive tract, most likely from a flare up of my muscle disorder, making it almost impossible to eat or drink anything, much less keep it down. So, they put in a semi-permanent G-tube (feeding tube) that I can use to inject some kind of nutrient goo straight into my stomach and bypass my throat, but that hasn't completely stopped the puking.

Anyway, there's a bunch of other stuff, but I don't want to write out a huge post just listing all the medical tests and surgeries and procedures I've had to endure over the past month, but needless to say, I'm exhausted. The only time I've been on my computer has been to try and keep up with my job, file medical leaves of absence, and keep my workplace informed of my status in the hopes they don't lay me off, or to email my insurance company and apply for more loans and schedule payment plans, etc.

After 2 weeks going back-and-forth between hospital and RV, I'm back "home" (my friend's RV) and have no idea how long this is going to take. I have no idea when I'm going to be feeling up to stream or do my own art again. I have no idea how I'm going to pay for all this. I'm even afraid I may have to sell my van less than a year after getting it, especially since I'm supposed to leave the RV when my friend gets back from Canada sometime in November and I don't know yet if they'll let me stay longer. I feel like shit, and I'm not very optimistic about my future. But, that's where I'm at. If you've got any suggestions, or words of encouragement for me, they'd be much appreciated.

Sorry to make you wait,
Godot

I had 3 surgeries this month to patch up my bleeding ulcer. I hope that means I'm back cos it's treated. I wish I had the energy to do more, but for now, I'm just returning to my normal weekly streaming schedule. Thanks for your support.

Krampus with me and the boys. He's clearly working from a list, I'm just... not sure which one. Naughty? Or Nice?

Anyway it looks like I basically won't be streaming on my usual days all December due to a combination of work and illness, so I streamed today and plan on going tomorrow for as long as I can before my next appointment in the evening. And if I finish the work I need to, maybe stream on Saturday, too? But I can't on Sunday.

But it turns out I have an ulcer. Like right on top of the door to my intestines, too. They put some kind of patch on it, like sealing a leak, and I'm getting another one or two added in on Sunday when they check it out. And now I have to chug a pint of this nasty medicine with pulp in it every day and limit everything I eat for the next few weeks and get a bunch of tests and possibly surgery. Again.

Kinda wishing the universe could maybe chill the fuck out for a few months and give me a break for awhile? That'd be nice.

Hello everyone! I'm finally feeling ready and energized to do a stream (hope it lasts until Sunday lol). I'm doing very well after my surgeries with almost zero pain, just annoying itchiness from the gauze and bindings I have to wear for the next month while everything finishes healing. Bonus, I'm staying at a house with my cat and air conditioning thanks to a kind pet foster home. Basically instead of just paying for my cat to be here, I'm paying for myself to stay here, too. Hope I don't give any of the other pets fleas.

Feel free to start sending in your requests through messages here or to my Discord ahead of time if you are in the $5+ tier for a single character sketch (+$5 for every extra character), or followers can buy a sketch on my Ko-Fi for $5 per character, or wait to ask during my stream to be put in the free request queue (if there's space). Hope to see a bunch of people there!

Thanks for waiting! I really appreciate it! <3
Godot

So my surgery on June 6th went fine. I'm feeling great. Breathing gets easier everyday. I'm moving and active, just like the doctor told me to be. However... I have been scheduled for yet another surgery on my heart. Apparently one of my arteries or veins or whatever has begun to stretch with the improved blood flow and oxygenation and is now being restricted by the stent they put in a few months ago. So I'll be up and about doing chores around the house I'm staying at only to suddenly almost pass out from my heart freezing up for a moment. Or at least that's what it feels like. My physical activity has been limited by the doctor until my new surgery to replace or remove my stent (he won't know which he should do until he gets the wire and balloon up in there).

Surgery date is July 8th, so I'm planning on doing 2 more day-long streams in the coming Sundays (June 23rd & June 30th), so feel free to make some requests. I'll be filling any extra time with more work on that animation I started before all this. I'll be back in the hospital July 5th being prepped for surgery with more antibiotic baths and stress tests, so no stream on the 7th. And even if I wasn't back in the hospital by then, I'd be too stressed to stream anyway. I have no idea how long this surgery is gonna put me out for, but I'll pre-emptively say all of July, in case you want to pause your membership until my return.

Thanks for waiting, and I hope to see some of you there!
Godot

Stream: Picarto