Still trying, hitting a wall again though.

Constant studio rejections, commissions starting to fall off a bit. Paypal finally gave me my money so that's nice, but it also remains a locked method of earning anything. 

Trying to think of -something- to do that isn't just wallow in video game escapism, but I need to keep applying to jobs or I'll get nothing and the real issue is purely financial (mostly rent) so the wheel of burnout keeps turning. 

In between it all, it's just brain fog whenever I try to think of something cool to do in Blender. I think a part of me is holding myself back from simply making horny content but another part of me thinks it's boring because I often feel like if you've seen one sex loop you've kinda seen them all just with different characters. I think what I really want to do is just make existing things look good through lighting, but the market for that is basically non-existent.

Mostly this month I'll be trying to collect my thoughts and figure out what I want to do because I think it's pretty obvious I can't keep going as I am. If I manage to snag at least a seasonal job somewhere that'll help something out.

 
Commissions have been coming in, which is wonderful and means the impact of rent is being kept down, and I'm sure / hoping people are seeing the posts on socials + I'm uploading them to Itaku when I remember to (I am 2 comms behind lmao)

I've still been contemplating on putting Patreon to rest and keeping Substar as the primary provider for my current works, but I've also had the thought of holding onto Patreon but trying to get some more SFW commissions and simply putting those here while changing this away from NSFW due to the current situation around processing and the threats that remain to income.

But I have to kinda laugh at myself because I've also done -very little- to actually do anything SFW on my own time although I do now have 2 pieces commissioned that aren't going to get nuked from a corporate office in San Fransisco.

Still on the grind, still giving myself brain damage looking at LinkedIn for any positive kind of studio news. Keep on keeping on~