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is creating an erotic journey through audio, writing and artwork. A storyteller that writes about random thoughts on life, kink and connections. Artwork that is sensual, yet provocative. Accent heavy (Australian accent) audio files narrating my own written content. Be warned - I am dirty, flirty and fucking filthy. I like to cross lines and push boundaries.... *** SCROLL DOWN TO SEE CONTENT ***
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Navigating the deafening silence of lost love…

What hurts more than the confusion that comes with losing the love of someone that was close, is the realisation that their absence fills your days with a silence that is louder than any words spoken between you. This silence lingers in the air, heavy and unyielding, settling into every corner of your life like the layers of dust in an abandoned house.

Love doesn’t cease. Your ability to no longer accept toxic treatment from the one you love supersedes the love itself and guides you through a painful journey of self discovery that allows you to understand the importance of self respect, accountability of others and the setting of personal boundaries and limits that you will fall on your sword for.

It doesn’t make it easy however. It’s not just their voice you miss, but the whole dance of shared experiences, laughter that once echoed through the rooms, debates that sparked in the twilight hours, and quiet confessions whispered in the dark. The future you imagined together slowly fades, becoming a ghost of what might have been, haunting you with memories that play on an endless loop, each replay a reminder of the void they left behind.

As days turn into weeks, and weeks stretch into months, the initial shock of their departure from your shared world transforms into a dull ache, a constant reminder that nudges at you in the middle of mundane moments. You find yourself pausing by the window, tracing the path they might have walked back to you, if things were different. The coffee tastes blander, the sunsets appear less vibrant, and laughter around you seems a touch too loud, too foreign.

This loss reshapes the world around you in subtle, cruel ways. Friends hesitate to mention their name, unsure of the ground they tread upon. Social gatherings feel like navigating a minefield, each step measured, each smile forced. You start to prefer the solace of your own company, finding a bitter comfort in the solitude that does not ask you to pretend, to smile, to engage.

Gradually, you begin to piece together your days with new routines, ones that do not include them but somehow every small achievement, every step forward, feels tinged with guilt. Should you really be moving on? Does healing betray the love you once shared? These questions swirl through your mind, blurring with thoughts of what could have been, what should have been.

And yet, life insists on continuing. Seasons change, bringing with them new challenges and unexpected joys. The sharpness of your grief dulls, edged away by the slow, steady rhythm of daily life. You learn that moving on doesn’t mean forgetting, but rather learning to live with the loss, allowing it to become a part of who you are now. This realisation doesn’t come as an epiphany, but as a slow acceptance, whispered by the part of you that still, despite everything, chooses to find joy in the sunrise, to see beauty in the world left to you.

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