How May went
Hello, it's been a month and you may have noticed that I still have billing paused. I should probably give an update on how things are and how they went for May
So the way I describe it is that I am, relative to previous months, better. That is not to be confused with better in general though. There are still days where I can barely get anything done. There are still nights where it inexplicably takes forever to fall asleep. I still get tired much faster than it feels like I should when exercising (though that could just be an out of shape thing).
But I'm still relatively better.
I don't need naps anymore, my energy is generally higher, and I feel much less hopeless in general, so things have moved in a positive direction... But I still can't say that I know what's actually wrong.
Basically, the improvement I've been feeling is linked to working with a psychiatrist to change some things up with medications. I don't know that I need to be super specific, but the end result is that it increased my sleep quality, allowing me to feel more rested in the mornings and generally less tired throughout the day.
And that's good, but psychiatric medication is only going to solve problems relating to the brain. If my problems are ONLY brain problems, then that's fine, but if they're not, then I don't have any plan on what to actually to figure them out. All other doctor appointments I've had haven't been able to come up with much of anything, as seemingly the only symptom I can point at for sure is fatigue. By itself, fatigue isn't indicative of anything in particular, so unless more symptoms show up eventually, I'm kinda stuck.
So... Yeah. That's rather frustrating, but I can't deny that some progress toward making me feel better has happened. Similarly, I haven't made enough content to update the game, but I can also say that a good amount of work has been done on a lot of things, and that I've been having some pretty productive days lately.
I think my biggest bottleneck on work (assuming that we're talking about days when I'm not too tired to work) is still the whole writing process. I've had a lot of thought about that and have more or less come around to the idea that I probably need to get someone else who can do some writing for the game. There are a lot of problems with that, but it's probably still a good idea that I should pursue... Except I also have NO IDEA where and how to get that set up on top of the other billion things that I need to/should do which I would already struggle with even if I was at 100%.
But all that aside, as far as the game goes, I've made progress, but it wasn't enough to have an update here at the start of June. Assuming nothing changes too much in the negative direction, I would be rather surprised and rather upset with myself if I DON'T end up with something I can wrap up and ship out BEFORE the end of June, but it's hard to make that promise, so I figured it was once again more correct in a moral sense to have the billing paused. Very much looking forward to getting everything straightened back around so I can give the people what they want, but I'm not QUITE there yet.
Thanks for your continued patience and support and hopefully I'll have something more fun for you sooner rather than later.