February is a Month

Ok so like I mentioned earlier the goal is going to be to resume streams this month. I'm going to try and start doing work streams: some will be on twitch (which will mostly just be doing art studies and practice), but I will still be using picarto as well. Sketch commission streams probably wont be a thing quite yet but I will be resuming commissions this month proper: I already have coms laid out for now but I'll post a notification when I have open slots or I want to do sketch coms.

Because my sleep schedule is so off kilter lately, stream time will probably be erratic at first, and it might wind up being "whenever I am doing art".

I'm posting something today to show you what I have been working on in terms of art study and part of it is working on some style stuff in prep for resuming Shadowlark. I'm not going to stop making boobwall stuff: BE comics and boobwall illustrations are always going to be a thing here, I just want to try some other stuff and work on my art skills.

Patron content plan this month is next page of Village Secret, and the Lilith smart bra illustration.

January is a Month (Happy New Year)

I have kind of a lot I want to say so I'm going to break it up between the stuff relevant for patrons and then the personal stuff you can ignore after:

Patron content is going to continue to be two pieces a month minimum (preferably at least one comic page. I want to be better about that.) A lot of that is based on how much I make from patreon (+subscribestar) which is a bit over 600usd a month. The plan was always a comic page per month per 500usd and even though the whole milestones thing doesn't work correctly on pateon anymore I am sticking to it. So unless I wind up with a huge influx of patreons its obligatory one page a month plus whatever pinups and sketches I feel like, plus commissions (which are going to resume soon out of necessity). I'll talk about the plans for adding Third Waltz and Shadowlark content later on in this post but the relevant part here is that you may see me posting more of that this year along with the kink and size stuff.

Patreon keeps telling me its time to review my prices because its been three years etc but I have no intention of raising it again unless they force me to. I didn't actually like doing it last time and would rather people just contribute what they think its worth / what they can afford to give away for tiddies. If circumstances change Ill notify months ahead of time as usual.

Almost all of my plans for last year fell apart spectacularly: I didn't resume Shadowlark or Third Waltz. I didn't get back to working on animation or 3d modeling. I fell way behind on commissions. I didn't write any new short stories or even make any substantial progress on NEU comics. A comic I worked with Sugarbug on and was supposed to color never got done. In just about every personal metric I set for myself I failed. At the very beginning of 2024 I finally managed to get out from under a debt that had hung over my head like the sword of Damocles half my life only to be sent home from the dentist because of dangerously high blood pressure; and subsequently now I have to take heart medication. I have had to deal with the collapse of a number of personal relationships as a result of my constate state of anxiety and depression making me very unpleasant to deal with when I can actually summon the courage to interact with people. I fell off commission streams and slacked on work due to burnout and frankly starting to hate drawing due to repetition and feeling like I never have the time or energy to work on my own projects. I had to excuse myself from one of the only constructive environments for art I have found online due to drama and anxiety I simply did not have the emotional stamina to deal with. And then, as 2024 came to a close: two of my family members wound up in the hospital and I bruised my rib being reckless. Both of the family members are home now, and I'm fine - it's just going to take weeks to heal and its hard to sleep properly.

So that's the energy I am entering 2025 with. I am going to do my best to get past my burnout and anxiety, to not drown in darkness. This is basically the only thing I know how to do and I don't think I am very good at it, and I promise I am going to do my best to fight back those feelings but wanted to express where my brain is.

December is a Month!

Big goal this month is just to get back to the weekend updates that I slacked on while hyper focused on that comic. Going to stick to one or two comic pages and then some pinups and commissions so i don't repeat that again.

I also don't specifically have a holiday comic idea planned; which means just continuing other comic projects (and of course Zip stuff I can just repurpose because apparently she is somehow my "I draw her for Christmas season" character now?).

November is a Month

Yup. I sandbagged October. I'm not going to get into it but it was necessary. It's a little upsetting because of how optimistic I was going into it, and I apologize about that.

Moving Barria's comic into November only bugs me because October broke my streak of comics monthly- and I didn't really want that to happen but I had to deal with something and the idea ironically inflated into more than a single page.

Honestly its going to be more about not being available for commissions last month due to the situation but that's easily solved once I get caught back up on comic stuff. And posting some warhammer minis like I promised.

I'll catch up on DMs and stuff in a bit.