Hello,

I didn't do an update last week and I'm a little late with one this week. Why? Quite frankly I have very little to talk about. I decided that instead of posting an update where I had nothing to say, I would wait a week and then post an update for the fortnight.

Which is fine... Until two weeks pass and there isn't much to say.

About the only thing of note happened a nights ago. I'd been in my messy nappy all day. No change there. However, I started to feel a soreness on one particularly part of my butt. It was right up towards the small of my back and near the middle. I went and cleaned up, but the soreness remained. 

Now, the problem with that area is that it is really difficult to see. I spent a while bending over and squatting in different positions, pulling my cheeks apart and trying to take a photograph to show me what was happening.

The results were rather inconclusive. There's no obvious sign that anything is wrong and the soreness has disappeared. As far as I can tell the skin back there is the same colour it always has been. It's not easy to tell though, it's not a place I look at much!

Something that I've thought about whilst writing this is another change that really started before the challenge even begun.

Long term subscribers may be aware that I'm polyamorous and in a four person polycule with my wife, my girlfriend and a metamour (both my wife and girlfriend's girlfriend.) For a long time I was my girlfriend's Daddy. Whenever she was over, I would change her, look after her, etc...

The problem was... I simply am not very good at it. I worry too much, I find it hard to keep up a care giving persona. Frankly, I'm not a Big, and trying to be one was stressing both myself and my girlfriend out. It was upsetting to me, to learn that I couldn't be a Daddy for my girlfriend. I wanted to be, mostly because she wanted me to be. I felt she deserved it, but it led to me feeling like I was letting her down all the time when I couldn't be the Daddy she needed.

Fortunately for me, my girlfriend is a switch and would seem to be more comfortable as a Big than a Little. We've always had a relationship where the roles were quite fluid, but now instead of me being "Dada", I find myself calling her "Mama."

I don't know how far I want to take it. I don't think I'd be a good "all the time" Little (though I see myself more as a Middle). There are too many adult things I enjoy too much, the idea of being kept as a complete baby can be hot for a short time, but I think I would soon go mad if that was all I had, but it's interesting. Being the Little is easy in a way that being a Big definitely wasn't.

My girlfriend will be visiting in a couple of months and we'll be able to explore more together... though, we may be too tired from all the DIY we have planned to do much of anything!

It'll be interesting to see what happens.

Here's the stats for the last couple of weeks and overall:

Week 7:

Number of nappies: 11

Messy nappies: 6

Toilet uses: 0

Times “overexcited” in nappy: 0

Number of leaks: 1

Week 6:

Number of nappies: 13

Messy nappies: 6

Toilet uses: 0

Times “overexcited” in nappy: 2

Number of leaks: 0

Overall:

Number of nappies: 87

Messy nappies: 43

Toilet uses: 1

Times “overexcited” in nappy: 15

Number of leaks: 3

Hello everyone!

So week three has come to an end and I've been learning more, adapting more, and experiencing more of life without toilets. It's been interesting. I'm happy to report that I had no failures this week. The toilet remained unused, the potty monster stayed unfed.

I've noticed that I'm pooping myself much easier now. It's never been particularly hard for me to do, but it's becoming just a reaction now. I feel like I need to poop, I move into a position and do it. Not mindlessly, I can and do hold it on occasion, but when I decide to go, it happens pretty quickly. Despite it becoming somewhat "normal" I'm glad to report I haven't lost my enjoyment for it. Indeed, with the nappy cream, I'm spending increasing amounts of time in messy nappies.

The downside of being messy so often is, obviously, the smell. I don't notice it when I'm sitting here working, but if I waddle to the shops and then come back it is REALLY noticeable. Does anyone have advice for that? Ways of keeping nappies in the house without stinking the whole place out?

There were three big events to talk about this week. The first happened last Tuesday when I had to go to the hospital. It was a scheduled appointment. I have had pulsatile tinnitus since last October, which for those that don't know (which included me until it started!) is a rushing sound in the ear that happens with your heartbeat. I was sent for a CT scan where they injected dye into me to light up my blood vessels. The fun started when the nurse failed to put a cannula in my arm the first time and as he was sorting it out I nearly passed out. A horrible feeling. Where I felt like my vision was zooming out and the volume of sound around me started dropping.

Fortunately, I was OK. I didn't throw up, I didn't pass out. I did wobble a lot on the chair and had to lay down for a few minutes though. The scan itself was fine. The nurse told me that as the dye went into my arm I might feel warmth and that I was wetting myself but that I wasn't so don't panic. Well, jokes on her, because I was lying in that scanner for about five minutes and I did indeed wet myself!

The next event occurred in Tesco which, for those that don't know, is a very big supermarket chain over here. I was kind of stupid. I knew I needed to poop before going out, but I really didn't want to have to delay my trip to the shop... so I thought I'd just hold it.

Well, I didn't expect the need to go to grow so quickly. I think that after three weeks of near constant wearing, my brain is already asking "why wait?" when i deny it the toilet. It knows I have a diaper on, it feels the discomfort and wants to feel better.

I ended up filling my nappy whilst squatting down in an aisle and pretending to look at an item on the shelf. Once I finished, I quickly went to the front and paid for the items, and left. I looked around a lot and I don't think anyone noticed. I certainly hope they didn't. I really don't want to inconvenience others with this challenge of mine. I probably could've held it longer, but my bowels were cramping up quite a bit and I honestly don't know how much longer I would've been able to hold on, nappy or not. I think it was the takeaway burger I had the night before that made things a little more urgent than usual.

However, the REAL disaster came just yesterday. I'm using some old nappies that I bought a while ago and never got around to using. Well, I don't know if it is because of the time they've sat in my bedroom, but the tapes aren't as good as they used to be. I don't mean the adhesiveness, that bit is fine. No, the problem is that the part of the tape attached to the rear flap keeps tearing off. It's a really bizarre failure, not one I've encountered before.

Anyway, I was in a messy nappy, as usual, the nappy had started feeling a little looser whilst sitting down and when I looked I saw that one of the tapes had ripped off in the way described above. I stood up and... two other tapes failed at the same time.

I couldn't actually believe it... still can't!

I stood up, three tapes had split and the nappy fell down my leg. I tried desperately to grab at it, failed and... Well, it's a good thing I plan to tear up the carpets in here soon because what is supposed to stay inside the nappy... didn't.

I cleaned and scrubbed for a while after that and whilst the stain is gone, I still know what happened, I feel its presence. I'm now a lot more careful with these nappies. Who knew thy could spontaneously explode? I swear it wasn't THAT full!

Here's the stats so far:

Week 3:

Number of nappies: 14

Messy nappies: 8

Toilet uses: 0

Times “overexcited” in nappy: 3

Number of leaks: 0

Overall:

Number of nappies: 39

Messy nappies: 21

Toilet uses: 1

Times “overexcited” in nappy: 8

Number of leaks: 2

That's all for this week. I'll update again in a week or so. In the meantime I hope you all continue to enjoy my stories.

Stay padded!

Elfy

Hello,

Last week I talked about starting a challenge of not using the toilet at all. I said I would keep people updated on how it goes. Well, one week later and here I am!

I'll save the stats for the end of the post but, firstly, I will say that I made it through the week with 0 toilet uses. It hasn't been without issue though. In fact, I've discovered a couple, one of which was really embarrassing.

The more mundane of the problems is simply the rubbing on my thighs. I've quickly discovered that thick nappies are simply not designed for walking in. They are made for being on your hands and knees and crawling around!

Right now, I haven't really fixed the issue. I said at the outset that this WASN'T an attempt to wear 24/7 or unpotty train myself, so right now, if I need to walk somewhere, I'm doing it between nappies. What I need to do is buy myself some pull-ups. Perhaps that'll be for when I next head out to the shops.

There is a logistics issue as well. I'm not flush with money, I'm thankful for all my subscribers, of course, but my income is decidedly not enough for infinite diapers. So I've been keeping an eye on how many nappies I'm using. I'm finding that I can make it with only two nappies a day, one that I wake up in and then another that will get me through the day. It means I go to bed pretty darn wet, but that leads me into the next point...

Messy nappies. I know they aren't everyone's thing, but I personally love them. Usually, my routine in a nappy is mess it, "enjoy" it, take it off. However, if I want to minimise nappy usage, I need to hold off on the second and third steps. Basically, I'm getting used to being messy for longer periods of time. This has meant a change (ha ha) to what I usually do which is taking some getting used to.

On the first day this week, I woke up, messed my nappy not long afterwards, "enjoyed" it and got changed... only to discover something that others may already know, something my girlfriend informed me all parents with young children discover: "There's always more poop!"

In other words, that second nappy ended up messy very soon after the first requiring another change. Lesson learned. After messing, don't assume there isn't more to come sooner rather than later!

Which leads into the most embarrassing incident... A few days ago, I got out of my messy morning nappy, had a shower, and then felt another need to poop. I didn't want to put a diaper on only to mess it right away and I want to avoid the toilet if at all possible... That's when I remembered the puppy pads...

It was something my girlfriend bought me, mostly as a joke, a few years ago. I very much have a "puppy" element to me and she evidently thought puppy pads would be funny. Little fif she know that they are actually useful! They are perfect for sitting on when you're worried you might leak, for example.

Well, I needed to poop again... Nappies were out, the toilet was out... So I grabbed the puppy pad, put it on the floor and squatted over it like a dog who hadn't been let outside. Needless to say, it was quite the humbling experience!

It worked though, and now I'm extra careful with when I take nappies off. I need to make supplies last after all.

So, I'm keeping a few different stats to see how it goes over the year. These are what I've recorded, if you have ideas for something else to keep track of, just let me know in a comment of message!

Week One Stats:

Number of nappies used: 13

Messy nappies: 8

Toilet uses: 0

Times “overexcited” in nappy: 5

Number of leaks: 0

That's it for week one! Here's to week two being another success!