Greetings my friends. An early update today to wish you all a Happy New Year. The last year and also the decade has been filled with ups and downs. From the payment gateways being shut down, spate of piracy, physical injuries and almost quitting to finding out that I have a good number of core supporters who are filled with patience and understanding, I like to thank you from the bottom of my heart. To be an independent creator especially in this field is tough in today's world and sales aren't at the point where they once were, but with your support, I hope to still forge ahead in this path that is dark and wholly unknown especially in this current social climate. There are a lot more stories to tell.

Doing what I do, it is time consuming and work-heavy but with this passion project  comes with it my pursuit for excellence to my detriment sometimes to deliver work of quality. But in the end, I've seen my follower count go beyond 10,000 at Pixiv and 2,000 on DeviantArt in the past year, numbers which blow my mind, members are still able to find me no matter how many times the powers that be try to censor this work. And now I find a temporary home on Patreon, Subscribestar & Hiccears. I am ever grateful and as long as I still feel that people are interested in my stories and works, I will keep on going. I have supporters leaving me feedback, from even the small stuff like alerting me to typo errors that I've written, submitting stories, or lending support and help whenever I have issues strike me, I am ever thankful.

If I am ever slow at updates I apologize. Creatively, this has been a solo operation and I think it's that aspiration for perfection that slows me down. I find myself rushing to update a post, then finding out a new voice for a story, or an avenue to improve on an already done artwork, which pushes that said update a day or two or even a week. But at least, any update I put out, I know that it is something I am proud of publishing. I aim to be as good or even more superior to some works you see out there in the mainstream, be it comics, movies, television or novels. That is my goal.

In part, working with this content is a delicate thing. In one way, I like to see it grow, and another, I do not want to promote it or be where it doesn't belong. I understand that this fantasy is a rather dark sort. But being a student of history, these thoughts exist even from the dawn of mankind and to push these thoughts down it is to live in a world of repression and homogeneity. And God knows what repression does to ones mind when it lashes out in harmful ways such as in religiously oppressive states and countries. Only that for those who harbor these fantasies, here is a little corner where you won't feel so alone. You are not a monster if you think it but not act on it. There are others like you. It is what you do (or don't do) with these thoughts which makes you a stronger person. And this is where I come in with these stories. So we can live out these fantasies through the exploits of the Van Duynes, Wynn "Big Game" Hunter, Kokhorov the Founder, "Anibal the Canibal" Zepeda, and many more.

Terrible is the world where one dictates how others should act, think or feel. If one disagrees with these stories, don't open that book.

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I usually post an update with some sort of artwork and I am tempted to leave this as a mere written journal. However, I shall not disappoint, as peppered around this blog post of sorts are odds and ends of artworks that I'm currently working on or loose pieces without context. You might see them again as part of some larger story, comic or otherwise. At least this makes the post feel less sparse.

If you folks wouldn't mind that I sometimes post these "journals" or blog like entries and not so much written content, as a form to connect better with all of you, let me know. Doing art puts me in an introverted state of mind where I need to disconnect with social media and correspondences to come up with my imaginative stories.

With that, Forbidden Feast wishes you a Happy New Year.

For the website version of this message along with bonus artwork for members, click on the link here.

The Game's A Foot
One of the featured artworks for the latest update 145: Cristoph's Obsession at Forbidden Feast. Men at a very secret auction discuss about a most prized item for sale. A chef reveals a tiny bit of his secrets, but not all. And a bit more about a man's obsession of his favorite slender harvest.

Hello fellow feasters of the forbidden.

First off, I’d like to say thank you so much for your support especially in the challenging past couple of weeks. I could've written some news sooner, but to be honest, I wasn't sure of how to go about with the future of the site until now. Navigating between sharing my art for free, and thinking of the followers who have generously spent a good amount of money to support my works, has always been a tricky balancing act. I don't want to be too selfish, yet I have to find ways to justify me doing my painstakingly done works, reward those who have honestly, gave me a reason to keep going, while also treating my art with some worth and not feel cheaply made and also appreciated. So when my works were leaked for free, it sent me a message that maybe my art isn't appreciated.

I'm still hoping to rebuild the creative momentum I used to have, but having seen your response, maybe I can get there again. Although still not at the monetary level before the P-pal issue & the leaks, subscriptions have been steadily growing again. Many of you too reached out to me personally through messages and gave some poignant advice. I have so many ideas, too many unfinished stories, sketches, comics, plenty of hidden pockets inside the TalesoftheVanished series that's still untold, to leave it all undone is a bit of a waste. Pushing the envelope seems to have finally paid off and it does feel it was somewhat worth putting in the extra effort.

And it's with this outpouring of support that made me realize that I have a very supportive fanbase that I haven't actually realized I had before and it is possibly to you, and the familiar recurring members all that I should be pouring my energy into, those who care about what goes on with my stories, who appreciate the extra detail I put into my works and are eagerly awaiting for new updates. So with this, I'm announcing some changes, hopefully for the positive.

In the end, want to cultivate a tight knit community and be better at curating my fandom and community. Not necessarily under "D-cett", or other related fetish communities but my own, the Forbiddenfeastcommunity. There are differences from how I approach the fetish compared to the other, for example, the way that I approach the fantasy is more grounded, a little more mainstream, and never misogynistic in spirit even though visually it seems that way. Here, we treat the "FleshofFem" and the "HairlessDoe" more reverentially. It is done with a celebration of sexual desires and love for women as beautiful tragic objects of desire, not out of hate and spite. To me, I don't know how to do works any other way. HPLovecraft, EyesWideShut, TrueDetective, TwinPeaks & Hannibal, these are the stuff of what I'm inspired by and it's what inspires the world of TalesoftheVanished. So with this, I need to cultivate the brand of Forbiddenfeast by paying more attention to my fans and not look too far away to other communities for attention. I feel like my works are rich enough to stand on its own. One can take a look at the illustrated pages that have been released so far or entries in the Glossary/Index section that describes a little more of this world I'm creating of the characters & goings-on within the dining halls of the enigmaticCircle, the CultofAsterion, the VanDuynes and more!

Just as one member poignantly mentioned in a comment:

I'll take this to heart and will continue to be inspired. The TalesoftheVanished stories are close to my heart & want to draw them. And all I know is that if I still have followers and fans who’d like to see them, I’ll still keep drawing with the same high quality as I’ve ever been. I may not be able to change things that are outside of my control such as piracy & deplatforming, but I can try to build a better environment here in our very small little corner of the web. That part, I can try to do.

Welcome to my first post! Here's some artworks of which is a sampler of what you may find here.