Fucking hematologist.... Stupid Indian fucking doctor.... 
Doctor: Oh yes yes your blood test numbers look great..... 
Me: Ya said that the last time and I ended up in the hospital almost dead.... 
Doctor: Yes I see
where was the blood coming from.. . . . 
Me: Um do ya read my fucking charts....
Me: I want to be checked at least once a month for my blood count.. 
Doctor: Ohhh that no need you ok right now. . . . 
Me: I don't care i want to be checked once a month because I am not going to be rushed to the hospital in renal failure and my kidneys shutting down again... Because YOU said I was fineeeeee . . . . . 
stupid fucker
Go back to fucking India
Last time he told me to stop taking my iron pills... both my primary and the hospital doctors said why would he tell you that???

Sorry all I needed to rant.... Doctors like him are why I hate most doctors and don't trust the rest.
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Well everyone things got a little exciting around here and a whole lot scary for me. No I have not found help with making my games. After recent events I need to take a step back from things that cause me stress.
 Last Wednesday I had a doctors appointment with my gastro doctor He noticed right off I did not look good and my  wife confirmed it. I had been really really sick and getting worse over the last month. He ordered up blood work to check things...... So I went had the blood taken and went home. This was in the morning. At a little after 9PM my wife got a call. My doctor had been waiting for my results. She was told to get me to the hospital NOW....... My hemoglobin levels where critical and I was in the first stages of Renal failure. In other words i had very little blood left in me and my organs where starting to shut down. After they confirmed my blood type B+ in case your wondering lol. They put me in a room within 20 minutes of getting to the ER.... Yea they moved me around quick cause well to put it bluntly I was literally dying from lack of blood. Over night between IV's and 3 bags of blood plus some meds and a bag of Iron to boost my system I was finally stable.
    Yesterday I went to my primary doctor and he also ordered tests to see if I am still good. ATM I am but we are not going to got 2 or 3 months in between again because I tanked hard and it almost cost me my life. From now on we are going to try for once a month as long as my insurance doesn't have a fit. With all this said I was told by my primary and the doctors and even the nurses in the hospital to chill the hell out and destress. Stop doing things like constantly worrying about these games.
 If anyone would like to take over my games please let me know and I will help out getting all the assets to you as well as all my notes. I will sit back and advise. My only hope is my vision being followed for the genres that are added to the games. I can also offer to use my towers to render the scenes as long as our files keep matching. I do not want them to get abandoned but as of now they are on indefinite hold. To those helping me all this time it has greatly been appreciated and still helps me even now with medical stuff. I will leave it up to you all if you continue to help or not. I never asked for this and hate it with a passion but I do not know what else to do.
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Well its now August and not much has changed. They have been messing with my medicine again. The new stuff they put me on is sorta helping with some things. My last blood test showed my anemia improving at least. This doesn't explain why I get sick for 2-3 days at a time. I spent the entire weekend sick as hell and pretty much ghosting everyone. I just did not want to be bothered. 

  I am not supposed to stay out in direct sunlight or extreme heat for long periods of time and its been in the 100F and above range for weeks now. I have central air in my home but even that is having a hard time and yay the a/c in our only legal vehicle..... quit.... I have a idea what it could be but my physical limitation are not letting me try and work on it.  I mean hey 30 years working on cars and guess what.. I am certified to work on A/c systems and can't do a damn thing.... I can tell you this I am really hating all this crap. Even my health insurance is now trying to fuck me over. 

  Because I am officially on disability they changed my insurance. I am on a very limited budget and they decided hey he is getting this much a month now.... Lets charge him for health insurance. . . . Now I have to pay over $170 a month for my insurance plus copays for each doctors visit and medicine prescriptions. My monthly disability just paid for my bills before now I have had to drop one of my 2 vehicles off my auto insurance and ohhh yea I now have to pay for my internet because our awesome government decided to cut the program for low income disabled people to have internet... Hell my birthday is on the 11th and I am broke as fuck....
  I am sick and tired of being sick and tired... I can not seem to find anyone willing to actually help with my games. I have multiple people say hey I'll help then poof they are gone. I don't know what to do everyone. I really really can't thank those of you that are still donating to my SS. It has helped me a lot and actually is just enough to pay my internet except when I have to may a damn copay.... Hell the last refill on my meds cost us $50 and that was only like 4-5 scripts.... One of them is $35 a month... Almost $800 without insurance and that's just one of like 20 meds i take. . 
 
  I have said it many times I did not start this to make money and I still hold to that but I am willing to split every penny this bring in with who ever would be willing to help me get these going again. The more that help the smaller the share but also the more that gets going the more they may get support for. What is needed is a writer/coder and someone to set up the scenes. As long as we keep our assets the same I can render. I have two pc's able to render just the pain in my hands and being sick or passing out half the time are messing me up big time.

  I am sorry I don't post more often. i am almost always around in my discord and always happy to talk to you all in voice chat. Thanks again everyone and sorry I still have not been able to get anything out.

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 It sucks when you only have one hand most of the time that fully usable and even that starts cramping up after a while. I still need help. I have had a few say hey yea I'll help ya..... Then do a little and poof disappear :(

  The renders attached are part of the fight scene. The arena which I have retextured almost everything and added more decor like trees. I made two new sets of guards and moved some things around to make it look like a actual arena for spectators. I also set up a new workstation outside my office. I will be able to now work from any of my 3 pc's and have the one above do all the rendering keeping the heat from being inside my house all the time and making my office a oven.

  As for my health. . . .Yea not any better and still fighting with doctors about pain management..... They are all scared now because of the opioid abuser so people that actually need help are screwed. "Oh we don't do prescriptions..... take Tylenol and muscle relaxers... Here lets inject you with this and give you more steroids. . . ." They still have not even set up my appointment for my carpel tunnel... I WANT TO BE ABLE TO USE MY HANDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....... So fucking sick of fighting with these people.....

  Guys and gals I refuse to let my work die but I can't do it alone anymore.... For those that have stuck by me and continue to offer your support. THANK YOU!!!! Every little bit helps right now. At the amount I have per month it take two months before I can withdraw as the min is now $50. I am not complaining at all just saying what SS has done to creators for the moment lol.

Well I have had a long ass day. Starting off at the hospital with a big ass needle and IV stuck in my left hand for 5 hours while I got a steroid, Iron and I forgot what the other infusion was..... Then coming home and after taking prescription pain meds I went to work. I created 2 sets of models one kings guard set with Uncle Alvey mixed in and the other is a basic soldier set. These will be placed around the fighting ring and scattered around the area watching. The archers will be up on the walls. They will be there to make sure no one interferes with the fight and no one cheats. But I am utterly done even the pain meds said fuck this... I am trying guys its just killing me without help. I have also spent days rebuilding my main assets to get this far and then setting up a network for my main towers to work back and forth from the same daz folder. Anyway here is what I accomplished today. If I feel good enough tomorrow I will work on a few random people. Along the lines of important people from town to scatter in the bleachers behind Lily and Kahlan. I also added photos of the old tower set up as a workstation in my shop. It's where I made the renders below.