BOOK 2 PRETTY LITTLE WHORE
CHAPTER 15
"Good girl," Jaimie murmurs in my ear as the last ripples of my orgasm fade to relaxation. "Such a good little slut for me."
CHAPTER 15
"Good girl," Jaimie murmurs in my ear as the last ripples of my orgasm fade to relaxation. "Such a good little slut for me."
He removes my blindfold, and I blink rapidly as my eyes adjust to the sudden light.
I crave to cuddle next to him in the afterglow of my climax, but he makes no move to untie me. Instead he lays next to me with a hand resting on my stomach.
"How was your night with the therapist?" he suddenly asks, breaking the silence. He's staring at me intently.
"Oh! It was… overwhelming." What does he expect me to say? I highly doubt he wants to hear details about the various ways Malachi fucked me and fucked with me.
"Did you come for him?" His eyes are flashing, which tells me he's not going to like the answer.
"Yes…" I say quietly.
"I hope you enjoyed it because that was the last time. If I am going to suffer while you get fucked by other men, it is only right that you suffer along with me. I want you desperate for a release by the time I see you. Do you understand?"
"Yes, daddy."
He already had me agree to this. Why are we going through this again?
"Did you enjoy his company?"
"No." That's not completely true.
It mostly is though.
"Good. As much as possible when you are at his place, when you are alone, I want you to gently touch your clit and think of any joy you feel spending time with me. You will not let yourself come though. Understand?"
"Yes, daddy."
"How many times did you come for him?"
"Uhh… once I think."
"And with the man in the lounge earlier—was that an act or did you come for him?"
"I came," I say guiltily.
"Is that it, or have there been others since I've seen you?"
"Uhh…." I remember coming on the girl's tongue at Malachi's workplace.
"There was one other," I mutter.
"Three orgasms? Wow, Jaycee. You really are a slut."
A rush of anger suddenly wells up inside of me. It doesn't matter that I'm still tied spread eagle to the bed. I'm furious and my built-up emotions are suddenly desperate to release. "How dare you try to shame me! You have no idea what I've been through! Do you know what it is like to be ripped from your home and have your body put up for auction? Have you had your virginity fucked out of you by a man over twice your age, and then forced to endure rape after rape, only to be told that this is your only purpose?
"Of course you haven't! Because you were lucky enough to be born a fucking man! So don't you dare judge me if I manage to find some fucking pleasure in this fucked up life I've been forced into!"
I'm shaking when I finish. Having gotten that off my chest, I stop and wait to deal with the consequences of my outburst. Jaimie climbs on top of me and places a hand around my throat. I brace myself to be put in my place. He doesn't tighten his grip or hit me or force his cock inside of me. He doesn't even seem angry like I'd expect him to be; if I didn't know better, I would say the expression on his face looks like a mix between sadness and fear.
Still holding my throat, Jaimie speaks quietly in a low voice. "For every orgasm another man gives you, you will receive five lashes, so that's fifteen lashes you've earned."
"But one of those orgasms was from a woman."
"Fine. Ten lashes then." He gets off of me to grab something from his duffel bag— a whip.
I panic at the sight of the whip. "This isn't fair! I didn't know about this rule."
"Well then, these lashes will help you to remember."
"You're being a jerk!"
"And you're being a slut."
I glare at him, furious, as he climbs back onto the bed and stands over me. Then he raises the whip and brings it down onto my stomach. I gasp at the stinging pain.
"You're right, Jaycee, I don't know what you've been through."
I grunt when he whips me a second time.
"And no doubt my life has been easier than yours."
Whip.
"But, that doesn't mean that life as a man has been a fucking cakewalk."
Whip.
"I spent my childhood with a dad who was too busy working, drinking, and fucking to pay any attention to me. "
Whip.
"Daily phone calls were my only connection to my mom until I was thirteen."
Whip.
"At that point I made it my priority to visit her, despite relentless mocking and insults from her master for me desiring a relationship with my mom."
Whip.
"He felt it was weak of me to desire anything from a woman, but sex."
Whip.
"One time when I came over for a visit, the minute I say my mom's face I knew something was wrong."
Whip.
"Her eyes were red from crying and she was shaking. Her master told me that he was going to teach me a needed lesson on what the proper use for a cunt was."
Whip.
"My mom began to take her clothes off in front of me."
Whip.
"I tried to leave, but her master wouldn't let me."
Whip.
I'm pretty sure that he's whipped me over ten times now, but I don't dare interrupt his story.
"He blocked the door and forced me to watch her strip until she was completely naked."
Whip.
"Then she got on her knees in front of me and undid my belt."
Whip.
"I was so shocked, I just stood there, frozen."
Whip.
"She pulled my cock out and took it into her mouth."
Whip.
"I wanted her to stop— begged her to stop, but her master stood behind me, holding me in place and told her to keep going."
Whip.
"I didn't know what to do. I'd never had a sexual experience with a woman before. I had gotten myself off, but this…"
Whip.
"I was horrified when my cock swelled in her mouth."
Whip.
"Deeply ashamed at how good it felt and how quickly I came."
Whip.
"Her master instructed her to let me come on her face."
Whip.
"After I came, her master told me I wasn't to leave yet."
Whip.
"He said I was to watch and learn how to take pleasure from a woman."
Whip.
"He had her bend over her bed, and then he fucked her ass in front of me."
Whip.
"Then he told me to leave and not come back again unless I wished to repeat the experience."
Whip.
"I didn't go back. I didn't even call. The shame and self-loathing was like nothing I had ever experienced."
Whip.
"I looked her up several years later only to discover that she was dead. Cause of death: unknown. The bastard must have killed her."
Jaimie must realize that he's been whipping me all this time because he suddenly drops the whip and begins to untie me, starting with my wrists. He continues talking.
"I was never the same after I let my mom suck me off. It's like a part of me died, leaving a gaping hole inside of me. Once I was eighteen, I fucked countless women, hoping that maybe one of them could fill the hole inside. But women have become experts in survival with ten foot walls erected around their hearts. As much as I'd placed my hope on a woman helping me to fill that hole, I am simultaneously terrified that if I were to find her, she would be taken from me.
"And I don't know how you've managed to do it, Jaycee, but somehow, when I look into your eyes, I don't see walls: I see another being longing for a deeper connection. You don't know how special and beautiful that is. And I know I haven't known you that long, but I can't help but care about you, and that fucking scares me. I couldn't save my mom, and it nearly destroyed me. I don't think I could survive losing you too."
He stops talking. My arms and wrists now untied, I crawl into his lap and wrap my arms around him; his arms automatically wrapping around me in return.
It never occurred to me that a man could harbor such pain. Of course, I knew my dad suffered from his inability to help me, but he always seemed like the one exception to the rule, while all other men lived to take what they wanted from women.
My chest and stomach burn from the whipping, but it was a welcome distraction from the pain I felt from hearing Jaimie's story: his mom had been taken from him three different times—first as a baby, then again as a teen, and then a third time when she was ultimately killed. It also never occurred to me that boys might experience abuse at the hands of men. How common is Jaimie's experience? How many men have a hurting little boy inside of them?
"I'm so sorry, Jaimie. I had no idea. Thank-you for telling me."
Jaimie lays down onto his side, pulling me down with him.
And that is how we spend the remaining hours of my lounge duty.