taking a break from uploading new VoDs for the foreseeable future! there're a few reasons for this.

one issue is time. even minor editing and chopping on a VoD is time-consuming for me; focus issues aside, i'm just slow and not great at it, lmao. remuxing, editing, uploading, all of eats up a lot of time. i struggle to keep up with them and it becomes a burden, a source of stress and guilt.

another reason i'm dropping them for now is that it's been SO much more relaxing when i'm not recording. i get to be much more in the moment, where editing the VoDs had left me extremely self-conscious when live (let's not get too off-track unpacking the self-esteem stuff there). i've just been enjoying myself more.

eventually/ideally, i'll eventually get an editor that can help with this. but for the time being, i don't really have the resources to find one comfortable with this content or the means to pay them. so, this is the best solution i can come up with for now.

tldr: no new VoDs for now. i'll still be streaming saturdays though and posting audios here, so feel welcome to drop by or hang out then!