This is very troubling, Skrill and SubscribeStar don't like each other anymore, and it's not clearly explained WHY but they blocked payments to the US if you use that service...

I use that service and would like to know more WHY this had to be announced today? The only other payment options are direct link to bank account or Fivver which I don't even know why that's an option? 

I'm sure there are other people having to deal with this issue but I would like to talk to them if you know anyone else. It's rather upsetting to need to gotta deal with this out of nowhere. 

OK, I should make a journal about this.
 
 I'm very lazy about it still, but pretty much all of June will be me going through my FA gallery and censoring MORE of the Warner and Pokemon and Digimon art I have over there. Animal Crossing is NOT at risk it seems, and if most of my characters were at risk, they'd have already been taken down. But it's HUGE possibility that Animal Crossing is next on the chopping block regardless of all that, so I'll look into getting all those censored as well (what a waste of time). 
 
That being said, I'll make an effort to back up most of that stuff onto other places. They'll end up being shared, for free, over on Subscribe Star here. Most of them should already be posted on Pixiv and or Rule34. I don't plan to make a e63 (what ever that place is called) account, but you're fine to repost any of the art there for me. Just tag properly. 
 
I believe in internet archiving, and I disappearing art is no good. Many artists have no problems nuking their accounts but I don't believe in that. If someone discovers all the OLD shit I did and it upsets them, that's their problem. If there are people who wanna look at the art I draw and want to have a problem with it, those people are people who I don't respect very well. 
 
Making up arbitrary rules to kink shame people you'll never know is such a waste of your valuable life and brain power...yeah I live in a glass house, and I throw stones in it all the time. 
 
But where will I be reposting? Most of the "old stuff" won't really go to Newgrounds, unless I like it enough. But this would be the 4th time, that I've put uploading shit on FA on hiatus until further notice. When Tumblr was created and FA put their stupid "ban" on cub art the 1st time, that was the longest time I never used this place. Other recent times are any of these "my art was banned because mods were in a mood" periods. I'm just tired of creating special images for FA because I can't show titty of any cartoon character anymore. 
 
Demion and Grunder are straight up sex criminals, but they're 100% valid to stay on this website but Wakko's fat sloppy dick will ruin someone's day. Amazing. For real, I discovered a new fetish last week, when I saw someone drawing "under age characters" (like Dot) strapped up in theme park ride chairs. It was COMPLETELY SFW but this gallery had commission after commission of cartoons about to be shot up into the air as apart of a rocket take off, or a theme park ride. How do you get that much money to pay random people, who don't know better, to draw these things? 
 
Fetishes like that are made when you ban porn. People shouldn't be fapping to otherwise SFW situations that are normally sexilized. It may not even be a sexual thing for them, which is why they commission it. It's still a kink, right? It's still bending the rules of the website that says "minor coded characters" are bannable, when guys like this can have all these lolis strapped up in chairs with the tense expression like something bad is going to happen. 
 Yeah, what did I say, I throw stones in my glass house, but it's so fucking hypocritical and stupid to have to deal with this shit. 
 
Still haven't committed to a Mastodon account that I would enjoy using, though I have a few lurker pages. I've seen a few furry galleries, but I'm not joining any furry gallery JUST for the furryness. I want good artists and most of them have NSFW twitters... and I REALLY don't want to be running a NSFW twitter account either. So mostly Newgrounds. 
 
If you have a Discord and want to be in my group? You gotta ask for it. Let me know if you're interested. 

It's been too long since I've made a formal journal, and I'm mostly here to explain a lack of art or a complete break down away from communities. 
 From Jan through Feb, there was a rut that I had gone through. Make a comic for this local paper, make a new art for Fridays or the weekend, get something done for SubStar, and get a few commissions done. Honestly I don't have a problem getting the art done that I was able to get done, but my body has been telling me otherwise. 
 
 My hand physically hurt, and no amount of repositioning, stretching, or getting better sitting arrangements could fix it. It takes NOT drawing to fix the pain I was experiencing, and it can quickly go back to be impossible to draw. While I have MANY pics that I want to finish, I look at them and feel uninspired to do so. There's something that needs to be tweeked or better yet thrown out all together. My mood tells me it's not the best time to draw what I should or what I sketched out. 
 
 There is a technique in the art community is to be happy with non perfectionism, but with the comics that I post to the Newspaper every week, that's been what I've been doing. I spend a day or two talking with people who want THEIR idea and then I sketch it up as quickly and as lazily as possible. The effort I give them might not always be worth what I'm given at the end of the week, and it's likely what's caused a lot of stress. Back and forth editing issues and concepts I can't comprehend. It's great to have this job, but then I can tell I'm already burnt out about it, and that's really sad. 
 
 My body equally feels like it's falling apart, and I get mood swings into depression and lethargy. I have another little job, that I do enjoy very much, just a small retail job. I'm still doing fine in that, but when the weather is so rainy, people aren't out shopping. Failing businesses around my area make me sad. I want to be able to go around and shop and be entertained, but I'm not making enough money to help the places I love. I love the rain too, so I don't want to dismiss it, but I'm honestly surprised how I've wanted to stay inside more and have a more lethargic feeling because of it.
 
 My diet sucks as well. Chocolates and breads are so easy to get a hold of, and you're dealing with a shut in life style, it makes everything worse. I often feel like I can bring myself out of it, but it doesn't last and there's a hormonal change that shoots me right back into not wanting to care or bother to keep myself from being tired. There could be things that happen with getting older that makes this harder to manage.
 
 I'm sorry if March has NOTHING to show for it's self. I'm sorry I can't keep promises. I can't even sit without something hurting, I can't stand without something hurting, I'm not sleeping well without something keeping me awake, and even eating hurts. It hurts to draw and I don't have the attention span to even focus on a drawing for more than 30 seconds. Maybe everyone else is dealing with this now and I'm completely not unique. Some people are having a pretty good time right now, and others are having it worse. All I can do is stay outta it and avoid getting other people's hopes up. 
 
 All I have is gaming right now. I enjoy playing video games. Splatoon may not be the best way to be spending my time, but I need something to help me feel happy. Also tinkering with virtual pets has helped. It's been expensive but I like being able to take care of these little guys. I got a real IRL DOG too, he keeps me busy with exercising the best I can. 
 
 I'll have a dr.s visit soon enough to look at me and tell me I'm fat and I need to stop being fat like they always do. Suggest a therapist who I talk to but they absolutely just make me feel more self conscious than I want. 
 
 I don't even know if people have really "missed" my art or noticed I've even been MIA, but now ya know. I'll post when I can post. Thanks for reading.

Yes, I'm posting on Tumblr again for anyone who still follows that place. I rather like making long form journals.

It's been rough getting old. I get worried more often about loosing foundations and people close to me that I still rely on. I don't have a good ability to maintain connections and friendships. Twitter falling apart is really funny, but it was the place where I got the most feedback despite not producing my best work. I think at this stage it deserved to fall apart. It wasn't a great website, and we all knew it wasn't good enough to support.

Other things I worry about is my body weight and pain. I still fall back onto playing games and being sedentary. I get out to walk and move around but I get bored about it and I get anxious for stupid reasons. People looking at me or that I should be doing something else. Drawing is my job, and with my wrists and joints hurting a lot, it's become harder to draw consistently. It's what I'm good at and what I need to do to stay relevant. It's very much like Kiki's Delivery Service where if I loose this ability, or even other parts of my health, I loose a lot more then just income.

I'm not sure what I can give back to the community or people who enjoy my work without killing myself over it. I can't stop being a perfectionist, and I'm just sorry I can't fullfill the things I want to do and give people. I put a lot of work out there to get attention and feedback, but it's never going to attract the people who are willing to help me get farther.

And it's unfair to even say such things, because I have gotten love and attention from people. I just fail to give back what I get. Still, I thank the people who want to give me those good feelings and likes. You are good in your own right, and you have your own issues to deal with in your life. What I do and what I complain about shouldn't stress you out.

On Wednesday, it'll be my 37th birthday. I don't really have any plans and it seems like anyone who I could spend the day with is gone or busy cause it's the middle of the week. I haven't really felt like being friendly either, and if anything if I could get a chance to spend the day by myself doing things away from people that'd be nice. But it does feel like there's not gonna be a celebration this year.

IF you so feel inclined to be nice to me, there's always a ko-fi donation. I would LOVE to send you some stickers and things I'm selling. So buy yourself an item from the shop. That supports me and gives yourself something funny in the process. Thank you guys.

>> https://ko-fi.com/anniemae

Note for SubStar Subs: I can't really offer a discount, but if you buy something, tell me what you bought, and I could offer a pencil sketch drawing if you wanna take the offer. May I ask that it be for only sales over 10$, that way I can make sure the drawing will be sent in a package that won't get bent. 

Social media? Yeah most likely Tumblr. I'm used to it. I'll see what most other people ending up using later, but I honestly hate setting up new accounts all over the place. I have a Co-Host and a Mastodon, but I gotta get in the head space to actually use them effectively. I should get Postybird or something to help manage that.

One of my part time jobs is coming to a close so I want to put this opportunity to remind you guys that my commissions are open and by next year, the prices WILL go up a bit. I do feel like my art is more valuable then it has been previously and I let it stay low for a year so some people could get it during a recession. It really did work out because I don't often take commissions and I'm too slow at drawing to really be there for people. The prices aren't going up because of inflation, it's just what you're supposed to do as you start doing more work. 
 
 Maybe I can give some feedback about getting commissions from me. People who have paid me and I've completed their pic, you guys have been awesome. Most of the time, I don't have problems with commissioners. What I do still get, and everyone goes through this, are the ones that sort of BAIT you into a commission.

 I'm 100% ok with someone saying, they can't afford it because you need food or to pay other bills that month. Take care of yourself 1st. Just I'm keenly aware of the "scammer" type mentality of certain people dropping into your DMs hoping you do all the work for no money for them. That comes with the territory of saying "commissions open" and it triggers a bot to find you.
 
 I'm not hunting for commissions to do really. I know some people live for the hussel, but I just get distracted by my own ideas too often and equally I play video games a lot. What I should be doing are these things:
 
 Be insanely thankful to the subscribe star people who are patient and tolerant to my random submissions that I give them. I really don't know how to run a service like that for a living without getting bored and it's pretty cool that they're just throwing 5$ at me every month without a problem. I do offer to take off 10$ for any adult theme commission they want to ask from me.
 
 Then be looking for more art jobs in general. My work is printable and graphic design friendly. I love doing logos for people and I don't really know how to network myself around to get those things. I've always tried to do contests and stuff, but I never actually get picked and it's always been a let down. If I ever had a fursona, it would be a skunk, because I'm cute and friendly, but that white stripe and the stink of someone difficult to work with repels them.
 
 ANYWAY

This is the price sheet until the end of the year. I'm about to finish up the last one I owe someone and I would like to get a few more. Take care of yourselves out there first.

ok, so something i've been putting off is a BIG OLD SORRY that I've had nearly no art to share this month. It's been too fucking hot and my OCs are making me do things. I've got a million wips, and I can't really be drawing porn in public or working on my PC in my oven of a room. So I do hope you guys are ok with this and I can wait until next month... which I can't promise will improve because global warming means september is now the hottest month of the year around here.

Take it easy and I'm doing the best i can.