Proof of Life -August 19-
Hey guys. For once, this proof of life is actually to prove just that. I know some of you were wondering. It's also a huge apology for not communicating my situation for so long. I'm not actually sure how much I should share with you all, but you deserve an explanation for why I went dark for so long, so I'll just start typing and see what comes out.
Some of you may remember that I've shared in the past that my family is multi-cultural. My dad is Brazilian and my mom is American. My little sister also recently married a Brasileiro, who it turns out, was living here on an expired visa. Marrying an American doesn't automatically get you a green card like I once assumed. Anyways, he recently had to go back to Brazil due to some health issues with his mom, and with the American political situation being what it is, hasn't been able to come back. As you can imagine, this has been pretty hard on my sister, and needing some moral support, she came and stayed with my family for the rest of the summer since I live close-ish to our parents and have more "room" for her and her two kids (from a previous marriage) than my parents do, (and holy shit, I never thought of it before, but now that I'm typing it, this sounds like it's own plot for an incest game, or even an alternate storyline for Camille moving in with Jacky.) However, there's been absolutely nothing sexy about this situation.
So, shit's just been really hard lately. My sister's kids are younger than my kids, and absolute hell raisers. I had to turn my home office into a bedroom, which has made it almost impossible to work on AFV during my almost non-existent free time. Having them stay with us has also been really hard on my wife due to her health and mental health issues. I didn't allow them to stay against my wife's wishes or anything, but I'm ashamed I didn't tell my sister no for my wife's sake. I'm just really bad at saying no to family.
Anyways, I've just been holding on by a thread since this all started. I've had to be an unpaid therapist for my sister and my wife, I've had to try and make our home feel like everything's good and happy and safe and clean for the kids, all while working full-time and getting very little sleep.
It's just been too much for me, and everyday I've told myself, "I'll find time to work on AFV tomorrow", and "I'll let everyone know what's going on tomorrow." and when tomorrow came, it was just too much for me to put together a fucking post like the one I'm typing now, and so once again, I said to myself, "I'll have the energy to do it tomorrow".
When life is going good, or at least somewhat normal, developing AFV is a great way for me to blow off steam, and do something I really enjoy, but while I was under water, it was just one of the things I had to cut out to not go insane.
I hope I don't sound too whiney. I know many people have things way worse than I do. But I really am sorry for being neglectful, for not communicating for so long, and for allowing myself to get so burnt out.
Prospects are looking much better moving forward though. My sister went back home on Friday so her kids could go back to school. I spent the weekend putting our house back together and recovering from their visit, and I finally feel good enough to start working on AFV again. I'm sorry that the update isn't finished yet. Everything is pretty much done on the visual side of this update, but I've still got a lot of coding, and I need to finish writing most of my final script for the Armani, Sidney event that I've been working on. I'll post a few previews for that event today.
Please find it in your hearts to accept my apology! While I've never been a great communicator, those who have been following the game since the start know that I've never gone dark like that in the five plus years I've been developing AFV. This is not something I've ever pulled before, and I commit that I'll try my best to never do it again. Even if things get super complicated for me again, at the very least I'll let you know I'm still alive, and AFV still has a future.
Thanks to all of you who continued to support AFV in my absence. While I didn't deserve your support at that time, I'll admit it was extremely helpful for what we were going through. I'm really grateful to all of you, and I hope you all have a great week!
P.S. - Please don't use this post to start any political arguments! Our community is, and should stay a non-political community. I understand that many of you may have strong feelings one way or the other about immigration, and you all are entitled to your beliefs and life experiences that have shaped those beliefs. By sharing my experience I've tried to leave out my own beliefs and biases, and hope you'll all do the same.