I can't stress this enough. This year out of every year since 2016 has done so much to test me that I just don't care anymore...

Family members passing, household money troubles (I can't keep bailing family out just to get nothing from it), no money means no stable internet so I rely on my mobile data - my sister's in charge of cable-wifi and I have no say on how she pays the bill without raising issues and I already give to her monthly. Internet and cable have been cut off every month since December last year. I can't talk to someone who clearly doesn't give enough of a fuck to change how she does things... Not to mention I bought her a replacement phone for $250.

Mum and sis can't grocery-shop for shit, far as I know I'm still pre-diabetic and there's nothing but sweets and junk food in the house so I either starve or risk getting sicker, I actually lost 70 pounds since my last doctor's visit - I'm underweight, It's THAT bad. I did the grocery shopping myself recently but mum hates the way I shop. Basically she doesn't like that she can't get the expensive foods and snacks she wants for herself. The kind we can't afford if we want to last for about 3 weeks.

Tax complications, bank card theft - had to claim misuse of my funds, jury duty, 90-100 degree heat waves, my new art tablet's built-in battery fried itself and it can't go wireless for more that 30 seconds - and now I've without notice been removed from the one private pixel-art veteran-only discord server I was invited into - that I've been a member of for over 8 years... I don't know what the fuck is happening anymore.

Just because I'm quiet doesn't mean I'm not there/alive, I got shit to do - I can't spend 6 hours a day whining about Nintendo or about the gaming hemisphere in general, or spare time to be horny for that matter... I say something at least once a couple of months for folks to know I'm out and about and there were members who haven't said a word since 2018...

Everyone I haven't been able to talk to, I'm very sorry but my home life is severely on the line right now and I need to figure something out soon before I actually lose my fucking mind. And no amount of chatting is gonna fix any of this, I need to act fast. This shit is getting out of hand.