163 - The Monday Posts Must Go On.

Yeah, another Monday Post. I hope you're ready. Can't say I have any particularly good news to share, but it's Monday and we all know what that means.
A lot of things happening today that require my attention, so I am writing this in a hurry and I hope you will forgive me if this post will end up being not as refined and sophisticated as usual :)
To keep things short: a lot of stuff is going on right now. My health is still on top of the list, but I am working on it and feel like I am doing all I can for the moment, I just need to wait a bit to see the results. But my health stuff is only one of many things... A lot of other crappy stuff has been going in almost literally every aspect of my life lately. Some I won't even mention for now since it would need context and a lot of explanation first.
To sum it up, a lot of troublesome and problematic stuff is filling my life right now. But among all this, two things happened:
Thing number one: I received a lot of messages and comments with words of encouragement and it honestly made a huge difference where my mood is concerned. And among that I even had a few conversations with people on discord and through emails who offered help with coding and other stuff. I don't think I can use any help in that regard right now, but it was still nice. I also had a talk with BadSpider. Did you guys know that he's been working standing up for the past 11+ months?! His story really impacted me. Frist of all it was an interesting idea (to draw standing up) and I was astonished that I never thought of it myself. Working standing up is not a perfect solution, but it's better then nothing. Second off all I found his story very inspirational because when last year I had problems with my butt nerves and could not sit properly I got really depressed, I  tried to work lying down, but mostly I've been just whining a lot until it was healed. BadSpider on the other hand just continued to work like a boss, and it really made me reconsider my outlook on some things.
Thing number two. It dawned on me that all the problems and troubles that are happening to me right now did not JUST happen. It was a project in the making for many years. For the most part this is a result of the way I lived my life, the way I treated my work, my body, my mind, my dreams and such. This is basically a signal for me to make some changes or that will be then of it.
That being said, I have nothing to report yet. Sorry. Honestly a lot of unpleasant crap going on and trying to solve and resolve it takes all my energy... 
I love you all dearly. Thank you for your patience and support. And sorry for not going into too many details for the time being. I will be back, I promise. For now though I need to figure things out since I'm the only one who can do it.

-Aka-