I'm considering pausing commissions this November. I don't like thinking about this because I don't like not being creative, but I've been struggling as of late with some projects. Not just commission work, but personal stuff. I feel like I'm failing to meet the expectations of those commissioning me. 
The month is almost over. I've just finished the latest commission (I still need to edit). I want to give myself the next two days to experiment. I usually do 1K a day, might try doing scenes. And if I like them, I'll need to take a month off because I can't really do that and mix in my normal commission work. 
It's not that I don't enjoy writing, I'm just hitting a wall and getting worse. My grammar has been slipping up more. My tenses alone keep haunting me like some invisible wall I can't bypass. 
Idk if I can pause Subscribestar payments. Apologies.