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This chapter contains explicit sexual content, strong language, and mature themes including graphic depictions of intimate encounters between men. It is intended for adult readers only (18+). Reader discretion is advised.⚠️

I was twenty-two years old and for the first 
time in my life I knew what it meant to be happy.
I don't mean that I had never smiled before. I had smiled. There were moments that were good. But the happiness I felt with Tibor was different. It wasn't a moment. It was a state. It's like when you've spent your whole life in a room that's one degree colder than comfortable, you get used to it, you think this is normal, and then someone turns up the heat and you realize you've been cold. Your whole life you've been cold. You just didn't know because you'd never known anything else.
Tibor was the heat.
Every morning I woke up and he was my first thought. Not dramatic, not cinematic, not the kind where I jolted up in bed and clutched my heart and ran to the window whispering his name. He was simply there. I opened my eyes and my brain's first sentence was: I'm going to see Tibor today. And that sentence was enough to get me out of bed.
Our bodies tuned into each other like two instruments that had learned each other's melody. We made love almost every day. Sometimes at his place, when Reka was working. Sometimes at mine, on the narrow bed that creaked beneath us and whose headboard hit the wall with every thrust and the neighbors definitely heard but I didn't care. Sometimes in the park, behind the bushes, quickly, with the thrill of getting caught under our skin. Sometimes slowly, for hours, when we had time and patience and the world stood still around us.
I loved the passive role. I didn't just accept it. I loved it. When Tibor entered me, that moment, that first centimeter of pressure that opens your body, that was my favorite feeling in the entire world. Not because it felt good physically. Of course it felt good. But because in that moment I surrendered. Completely. Without reservation. I let someone into my body, into the deepest place that exists, and that someone didn't hurt me. Didn't use me. Loved me. With every thrust he said he loved me. Not with words. With his body.
Tibor knew this too. He felt it on me. He saw it on my face when he slid inside, that expression that wasn't pleasure and wasn't pain but something that stood above both. Arrival. Homecoming. My body came home every time Tibor was inside me.
"You are the most beautiful thing that has ever happened to me," he said once. It was after. Our skin stuck with sweat. The room's smell was unmistakable, sex and perspiration and the remnants of Tibor's aftershave and the scent of my skin which Tibor said reminded him of cinnamon though I never understood that.
"Don't say that," I replied. Not because I didn't want to hear it. Because I was afraid of it. Afraid that if he said it, it would break. Like a bubble that pops when you touch it. My life had taught me that beautiful things don't last long. That whoever loves you will eventually hurt you. That happiness is just the anteroom of pain.
Tibor shook his head. He had learned what my fears meant. He didn't argue. He just pulled me close, buried my face in his neck and held me. Tightly. Until my body relaxed and the fear retreated to its corner like a dog you can't chase out of the house but at least it stays quiet if you treat it well.
It was May. Or maybe early June. I don't know the exact date because during that period the days flowed together like honey. They were sweet and thick and dripped slowly and each one tasted the same: Tibor.
That day we were at his place. Reka had gone to work early in the morning, her shift lasted until evening. At least that's what she said. For us that meant the whole day was ours.
Tibor's apartment was small. One room, kitchen, bathroom. The room served as both bedroom and living room, with a fold-out sofa bed in the middle that was a bed at night and theoretically a couch during the day, though we never folded it up because why bother. The walls were yellowish from old paint. The curtain didn't cover properly and the morning sun poured through it like water through a filter. On the shelf stood Tibor's books, Kafka, Camus, Kerouac, and that little radio cassette player that always had something playing, right now it was the Cure.
Robert Smith's voice filled the room when Tibor kissed me.
It wasn't a sudden kiss. Tibor was never sudden. He approached slowly. First with his eyes. He looked at me with that gaze that made my stomach clench and my cock twitch in my pants simultaneously. Then with his hand. He stroked my face. His finger traced along my cheekbone, down the line of my jaw, to my neck, my collarbone. Everywhere his finger went, my skin caught fire.
"Come here," he said softly.
He didn't have to say it twice.
The kiss started slowly. Our lips barely touched each other, feather-light, like a breeze on the surface of water. I sucked Tibor's lower lip into my mouth and he moaned softly and that sound, that deep, hoarse, barely audible moan, went straight to my cock. I got hard immediately. Tibor felt it because my thigh pressed against his thigh and the evidence was right there between them.
"You're always so quick," he whispered into my mouth. I felt his smile against my lips.
"You do this to me," I said.
The clothes came off slowly. We didn't tear them off each other. We unwrapped each other like gifts. I pulled Tibor's T-shirt off him, slowly raised his arms and pulled the fabric over his head and his chest was there before me, his bare skin, his chest hair that was dark and soft, and that small mole above his left nipple that I always kissed because it was mine. That spot. Those few square millimeters of brown skin. They were mine.
Tibor pulled off my T-shirt. Slowly. His fingers slid along my sides and I got goosebumps everywhere. When I freed my head from the fabric, Tibor looked at me. He always looked. He didn't just see my body, he looked at it. Like someone studying a painting. Like someone who wants to memorize every detail because he knows that beauty doesn't last forever.
"You're beautiful," he said.
"I'm not beautiful," I said. Because I truly didn't believe it. In the mirror I saw a skinny, pale boy whose ribs stuck out and whose cheekbones were too sharp and whose eyes were too big for his face and whose body was too fragile for anyone to find beautiful.
"Yes you are," Tibor said. Then he knelt before me.
My heart stopped. Or beat faster. I don't know. Tibor knelt there before me in the middle of his room, at the zipper of my pants, and looked up at me. His eyes were warm and dark and full of something that wasn't merely desire. It was more than that. Deeper. Something that said your body is sacred and I am going to show you.
He unbuttoned my pants. Pulled them down. Then my underwear, slowly, and my cock sprang out, hard, throbbing, and Tibor didn't touch it right away. First he looked at it. Then he pressed his nose against the base and breathed in my scent and I nearly fainted. Not from the touch. From the fact that someone would do something this intimate with me. From the fact that someone wanted to breathe in my scent. That someone wanted me so much they needed even my smell.
Then his tongue. From below, from the base, along the entire length, slowly upward, all the way to the head. I felt the warmth of his tongue on my skin, felt the saliva leaving a trail on my cock, and when he reached the head, he took it into his mouth. He didn't swallow it. He received it. The way you receive the host at communion. Slowly, respectfully, reverently.
I moaned. Loudly. My mouth opened and the sound came out and I didn't care. His tongue circled around my head, pressed it against his palate, sucked, and all the while his eyes were on me. On me the entire time. He watched me as I came undone. Watched as my head fell back and my eyes closed and my hand dug into his hair.
"Tibor," I moaned. "If you don't stop, it's going to be over."
He released me from his mouth. My cock stood in the air, wet, glistening. Tibor stood up, pushed down his own pants, and there he was before me, naked. His cock was hard, thicker than mine, slightly curved upward, and the head was pinkish and wet with precum.
I found it beautiful. I had always found the male body beautiful. But Tibor's was especially beautiful because his was the first that touched me with love.
"Turn around," he said softly.
His voice wasn't a command. It was a request. Gentle, hoarse, yearning. But I didn't want to turn around. Not this time. I wanted to see his face. I wanted to see his eyes when he slid inside me. I wanted to see that moment when his body entered mine and that expression appeared on his face that I could never paint or describe but which was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen.
"I want it like this," I said. "Face to face."
Tibor's eyes changed. They softened. He nodded.
I lay down on the sofa bed. The sheet was wrinkled from the night before and smelled like Tibor and that scent wrapped around me like a blanket. I spread my legs. Tibor knelt between them. His body leaned over mine. Our faces were close, his nose touched mine, his breath caressed my face.
"Are you ready?" he asked.
"I'm always ready for you," I said.
He smiled. He spit into his hand, spread it on his cock, then pressed his finger against my hole. Gently. He massaged the entrance in a circular motion and my body remembered, opened, received. One finger slid in. Then two. My body embraced his fingers, tightly, warmly, and Tibor moved them inside me slowly, opening, stretching, preparing that place that was his. Only his.
When he pulled his fingers out, their absence hurt. But I knew what was coming next. He positioned his cock at my hole. I felt the firmness of the head at my entrance. It was hot. Throbbing. Standing at the threshold. About to enter.
"Look at me," Tibor said.
I looked at him. His eyes sank into mine. And in that moment, in the middle of that eye contact, Tibor pushed himself into me.
Slowly. Centimeter by centimeter. I felt the head pass through the tightness, felt the pressure, that moment when the body resists then surrenders, and the pain flips into pleasure like a wave that first rises then crashes. Tibor's face was above mine and I saw everything on it. The pleasure as his cock slid into the tight warmth. The love as his eyes searched for mine. The self-control as he pushed slowly and didn't rush because he knew my body needed time.
"God," I moaned when he was all the way in. The fullness. That feeling when you can feel every centimeter of him, when his body is completely inside yours, when there's no gap between you, no air, nothing but skin and flesh and warmth and him.
Tibor started to move. Slowly at first. He almost pulled himself out then slid back in, all the way, and with every thrust I made a small sound I couldn't control. A moan. A sigh. A breath catching in my throat. My body responded to him like an instrument being plucked. It made music at every touch.
"Faster," I said.
Tibor leaned down to my mouth. He kissed me while he sped up. His tongue was in my mouth, his cock deep in my ass, and I was filled from two endpoints simultaneously and the sensation was so intense I saw stars behind my eyes. The sofa creaked beneath us. The headboard hit the wall, rhythmically, faster and faster.
"You're louder than you think," Tibor whispered in my ear. Laughter hid in his voice.
"I don't care," I said. I was right. I didn't care. I didn't care if the neighbors heard. I didn't care if the world knew. In that moment only Tibor existed, his body inside mine, his mouth on my skin, his hand gripping my hip and pulling me toward him with every thrust.
The pace increased. Tibor's movements became harder, deeper, and I felt him rub my prostate with every inward thrust and that feeling, that deep, dull, electric wave that started there and traveled up my spine into my brain, that was the thing that made the world cease to exist. Only this feeling remained. Only Tibor's cock in my body and the pleasure building and building and building.
"Almost," I moaned. "Tibor, almost..."
Tibor moved faster. His hips slapped against the skin of my ass, wet, fleshy, and that sound mixed with my moans and the creaking of the sofa and the Cure's music still playing from the radio though neither of us heard it anymore.
The orgasm came from below. It started in my balls, ran up into my cock, from there into my spine, from my spine it exploded through my entire body. I came without being touched. My cock, between my stomach and Tibor's stomach, pulsed and shot my cum, white streaks on our skin, and my ass clenched around Tibor's cock so hard that Tibor cried out.
"Tamas," he moaned. My name. My real name from his mouth. Then he came too, deep inside me, I felt his cock swell and pulse and his hot cum fill my insides and that feeling, that feeling of someone coming inside you, that warm flood in the deepest part of your body, that was the most intimate thing in the world. More intimate than anything words could ever describe.
Tibor collapsed onto me. His weight lay on me. He was heavy and warm and smelled of sweat and it was perfect. His cock was still inside me, growing softer, and his cum slowly seeped out of me around it. We didn't move. We just lay there on the wrinkled sheet, tangled in each other, panting, and our hearts drummed into each other through the walls of our chests.
"I love you," Tibor whispered into my neck.
"I love you too," I said. I wasn't afraid to say it. Not this time.
That's how May went. And early June. Every day the same happiness in different wrapping. A morning kiss that turned into afternoon sex that turned into an evening walk that turned into a nighttime embrace that turned into a morning kiss. An infinite circle. A happy circle. The first one in my life.
But fate, that bastard fate that never left me in peace for long, had a surprise prepared.
It was mid-June. Thursday. Reka was working the morning shift, or so we thought. Her boss sent her home because there wasn't enough work at the store. Reka didn't call because why would she, she was going home to her own apartment. Normal thing. Completely normal.
The only thing that wasn't normal was what was happening in her apartment.
Tibor and I were on her bed. Not the sofa bed. The bed. Reka's and Tibor's. I know. I know it's terrible. But the bed was bigger and Reka wasn't home and our bodies didn't care about etiquette.
Tibor was on my back. No, inside me. Deep, hard, fast. I was on all fours, on my knees and elbows, my head buried in the pillow, and Tibor knelt behind me, gripping my hips, fucking me like his life depended on it. I was loud. Very loud. I moaned, I cried out, I said his name over and over, and the sofa bed creaked and the headboard hit the wall and Tibor's voice behind my back was deep and animal and beautiful.
"Don't stop," I moaned. "Don't you dare stop."
Tibor didn't stop. His thrusts grew harder, his hips slapped against the skin of my ass, and that wet, smacking sound filled the room. We didn't hear the front door. We didn't hear the footsteps in the hallway. We didn't hear anything because our own sounds drowned out everything.
Reka didn't knock.
Why would she? It was her own room.
The door opened.
That moment. That half-second when the world stops. When you lift your head from behind the pillow and look toward the door and there stands Reka in the doorway, her bag on her shoulder, her keys in her hand, and her eyes see the image that can never be unseen.
Tibor inside his friend. Deep. Hard. Unmistakable.
My body froze instantly. Tibor pulled himself out of me, the feeling of emptiness sharp as a knife, and he fell back on his heels, his cock still hard, still wet, glistening from my body, and we both stared at Reka like two deer in the headlights.
"Reka," Tibor said. His voice trembled. "This... we..."
The shame. The shame I felt in that moment was equal to the sum of all previous shames yet still different. Because I wasn't ashamed of what we were doing. I wasn't ashamed of the sex. I wasn't ashamed of Tibor's cock inside my body. I was ashamed that we did it in Reka's bed. That we weren't careful. That we shat all over her trust like this.
Reka stood in the doorway. The strap of the bag on her arm slid off her shoulder but she didn't reach for it. Her eyes were on us. Tamas and Tibor, naked bodies, in sweat, with the evidence of sex everywhere. On the bed the sheet was wrinkled and wet. The room smelled of sex in a way that couldn't be denied.
I waited for the scream. The tears. The rage. I waited for Reka to run out or smash plates or throw both of us out on the street.
But Reka didn't scream.
She looked at us. For a long time. Calmly. Then an expression appeared on her face that I hadn't expected. It wasn't shock. It wasn't anger. It wasn't pain. Something that was none of these yet a little of each. Understanding. Resignation. Maybe relief.
"It's okay," Reka said. Her voice was calm. Surprisingly calm. "Go ahead and finish. We'll talk when you're done."
Then she closed the door.
Tibor and I looked at each other. Our faces. If someone had photographed our faces in that moment, it would have been the most accurate depiction of human terror, shame, and shock ever recorded. Tibor's mouth was open. So was mine. Our cocks had wilted like flowers that hadn't been watered for a week.
"Did that really just happen?" I asked.
"It happened," Tibor said. His voice was barely audible.
"She said we should continue?" I asked.
"She did."
"I'm not going to continue."
"Me neither."
We got dressed. Our hands trembled so badly that I had to try three times to get the zipper of my pants. Tibor put his T-shirt on inside out and didn't notice and I didn't say anything because my T-shirt was Tibor's and his was mine but that really didn't matter right now.
Reka's room was the other room. We went in. We knocked first and the irony of this hit us both in the heart. We were knocking on her door when she hadn't knocked on her own. Because it was her own. Because she had every right to be there. Because we were the intruders.
"Come in," Reka called.
We went in. Reka was sitting on the edge of her bed. Her bag was on the floor. In her hand was a mug of tea whose steam rose slowly upward. As if everything were completely normal. As if she hadn't just seen two naked men in her bed hip-deep in each other.
Tibor and I stood at the other end of the room. Like two students before the principal. We didn't know where to put our hands. We didn't know where to put our eyes. The shame hung on us like wet clothes.
Reka took a sip of tea. Set it down. Looked at us. Then smiled.
Smiled.
"Sit down," she said. "You look like you're being led to an execution."
We sat down. On the edge of the bed across from her. Next to each other, but not too close, as if our proximity were somehow indecent now. As if the contact of our bodies now, in front of Reka's eyes, were different than five minutes ago.
Silence. Reka looked at us. We looked at the floor.
"So," Reka said. "You two."
"Reka, I..." Tibor began.
Reka raised her hand. Tibor fell silent.
"Let me say what I want to say," Reka said. "Then you can say what you want. But me first."
We nodded. Like puppets.
"First of all," Reka said. "I'm not surprised."
The sentence hovered there in the room.
"You're not as secretive as you think. The looks. The little touches you disguise as accidental. The fact that Tamas sleeps here every other night. The fact that when you're together, the air in the room is different. I'm not blind. No woman is. Only men believe that women don't see."
Tibor stared at the floor. His ears were red.
"Second. No one is going to find out. Not from me. This is your business. Not mine. Not the neighbors'. Not your mothers' and not your friends' business. You two love each other and that never hurts anyone."
My eyes burned. The tears came and I couldn't hold them back. They ran down my face and dripped onto my T-shirt which was actually Tibor's T-shirt and had Tibor's scent on it and my tears fell onto a T-shirt that smelled like Tibor and for some reason that hurt even more.
"Third," Reka said and now her voice was a little harder. "Not in my bed again."
A moment of silence. Then Reka grinned. Then Tibor grinned. Then I grinned too. Then we laughed. All three of us. Loudly, through tears, the way people laugh when the tension pops like a balloon and the sound that comes out of you isn't laughter but the sound of relief.
"By the way, what I saw," Reka said and her eyes were mischievous. "It wasn't bad."
"REKA!" Tibor and I shouted in unison.
"What?" she laughed. "At least I know my boyfriend's equipment works."
Tibor buried his face in his palms. I did too. But we were laughing. Terribly, unstoppably, with that laughter born from the mixture of shame and relief that shakes your entire body.
Reka stood up, came over to us and hugged us both. At the same time. Her arms around us. Her heartbeat against our chests. The woman who had just seen her boyfriend fucking his friend now hugged both of us and held on.
"Just be careful," she said quietly. "The world isn't as accepting as I am."
I knew. God knows I knew.
July. Lake Balaton. The most beautiful word in the world that summer.
Four of us went: Zsolt, Reka, Tibor, and me. It was Zsolt's idea. He found a cheap cottage in Fonyod, right by the water, with two rooms. Zsolt and Reka in one, Tibor and I in the other. It felt natural. Two couples. At least to Zsolt it was two couples. Only one of the couples wasn't what he thought.
Zsolt didn't know about Tibor and me. No one knew except Reka. Zsolt was a good guy but he was famous for not being able to keep a secret. If he found out, within a week the whole town would know. Not out of malice. Just because that's how Zsolt worked. Every piece of information that went in came back out. No filter.
The trip itself was an adventure. Zsolt drove the old Lada that wheezed on every hill like an asthmatic uncle. Reka sat in the passenger seat holding the map though Zsolt never looked at it because he thought he knew the way. He didn't. We got lost twice. We stopped to pee three times. Once Zsolt nearly drove into a ditch because he was staring at a cow on the side of the road.
Tibor and I sat in the back seat. Side by side. Our thighs touching. Our hands intertwined behind the backpacks where Zsolt couldn't see them in the rearview mirror. Tibor's thumb drew circles on my palm and that small gesture, that secret, tiny touch, was the most intimate thing I had ever done in a public place.
Fonyod was beautiful. The cottage was small and worn but it stood directly on the shore. From the garden we stepped onto the sand. Lake Balaton in mid-July glittered like molten silver. I can't describe the smell of the air because that smell was the smell of childhood, reeds and algae and sunscreen and fried fish from the nearby snack bar and Tibor's sweat on his neck.
The days were simple and perfect. Morning swim in the warm water. Late morning sunbathing on the pier. Lunch at the nearby pub where the fish spread was slathered thick on the toast and the wine was cheap and sweet and tasted like life itself. Afternoon card games on the cottage porch. Zsolt always cheated and always got caught and always denied it. Reka won because Reka won at everything.
Evening was the fire. Zsolt built it on the shore. The flames cast orange light on our faces and on the Balaton. The water reflected the fire and it looked as if the entire lake were burning. Tibor sat on the other side of the fire, facing me, and watched me from behind the flames. His eyes in the firelight were golden. His mouth a smile illuminated by flames. We didn't speak. We didn't need to. The fire spoke for us.
Zsolt told terrible jokes. Reka rolled her eyes at every joke but laughed anyway. Tibor laughed. I laughed. Four people around a fire on the shore of Lake Balaton and the sky above us was full of stars because in Fonyod there wasn't enough artificial light to block them out.
"Did you know the original name for Balaton was Pelso?" Zsolt said. "That's what the Romans called it. It means swamp."
"It doesn't mean swamp," Reka said.
"Yes it does."
"No."
"Yes it does. I read it."
"Where did you read it?"
"Somewhere."
"Exactly."
Tibor and I laughed. Zsolt and Reka's arguments were always like this. Not anger. Play. Two people who love each other so much that even their fights are an embrace.
That night I waited until Zsolt's snoring filtered through the thin wall. Tibor lay next to me in bed, his finger stroking my arm, and we both listened to the sound. Zsolt snored. Reka didn't snore. But Zsolt was loud enough for both of them.
"Let's go," Tibor whispered.
"Where?" I asked though I knew.
"The water."
We snuck out of the cottage like teenagers climbing out their window at night. The screen door closed softly behind us but they didn't wake up. The sand was warm under our feet, still holding the sun's heat even at night. Lake Balaton lay before us, quiet and dark and infinite.
But not dark. Because the moon.
It was a full moon. An enormous, round, yellow full moon hanging over Lake Balaton like a lamp someone had placed there because they knew two boys would need it tonight. The moonlight drew a silver path on the surface of the water. That strip of light ran across the water to the horizon as if someone had laid a silver carpet on the lake. The black silhouette of the reeds against the silver water looked like a painting. Or like a dream. Or like the world I always wished I could live in.
"Beautiful," I said.
"So are you," Tibor said.
We undressed on the shore. We threw our clothes on the sand, carelessly, tossed on top of each other, and our naked bodies glowed white in the moonlight. We walked toward the water. The sand near the waterline was cooler. The first step into the water was a surprise because Lake Balaton was warm even at night, almost lukewarm, like bathwater that's been sitting for hours.
We went in. Slowly. The water reached my ankles, then my knees, then my hips, then my chest. The bottom of the lake was soft mud that pressed up between my toes. The water on my skin was silk. Warm silk that embraced me everywhere.
Tibor swam in front of me. In the moonlight his face was silver and shadow. His eyes sparkled. The water reached his chest and his chest hair clung wet to his skin. He was beautiful. More beautiful than anything I had ever seen.
He kissed me. In the water. In the moonlight. In the middle of Lake Balaton, at night, naked, at eleven o'clock on a July night. The kiss was salty from our skin and sweet from the wine we drank at dinner and warm from the desire that never, not for a single day, ceased between us.
"The pier," Tibor whispered.
The pier was twenty meters from us. A wooden pier, old, with worn planks that had faded gray from the sun. We swam to it and climbed up the ladder. The wood was warm beneath our skin. We lay on our backs side by side and above us the sky was full of stars and the moon hung among them like a queen among her courtiers.
Tibor turned toward me. His hand slid onto my chest. Then lower. My stomach. My hip bone. My groin. My cock lay wet from the water on my thigh and Tibor's fingers found it and wrapped around it and at his touch it immediately stirred.
"Here?" I asked.
"Here," Tibor said.
"Anyone could see us."
"I know."
"You don't care?"
"No."
He kissed me again. His hand moved on my cock, slowly, tightly, and I hardened in his fingers. I felt the moonlight on my skin and the roughness of the wood against my back and Tibor's hand on my cock and the breeze blowing off the lake and all my senses were awake at once, every pore perceiving the world.
Tibor knelt above me. He spit into his hand, wet his cock, then lifted my legs. He placed my ankles on his shoulders. In the moonlight I saw his cock as he aimed it toward me, saw the head glistening with saliva, saw my own body lying open before him on the old planks beneath the stars.
He slid in. One thrust. Not rough but not gentle either. Just right. Exactly the way my body asked for it. I felt him fill me, felt his thickness and his warmth and the veins of his cock against my walls and I moaned, loudly, my voice flying out over the lake and the water bringing it back like an echo.
Tibor moved above me. The moonlight danced on his face, the drops of sweat on his forehead glistened silver. His body was beautiful seen from below, the muscles tensing with every thrust, the stomach contracting, the chest rising and falling with heavy breathing. And his eyes on me. Always on me. Even in the dark he looked at me as if I were the only light.
"Harder," I whispered.
Tibor went harder. The thrusts made the pier's planks creak. Underneath, in the water, fish splashed from the noise. My body slid backward on the wood with every impact and Tibor pulled me back by my hips. The roughness of the wood scratched my back but I didn't care, the pain mixed with the pleasure and that mixture was intoxicating like the strongest wine.
When I opened my eyes, I saw movement on the shore.
Three figures. On the sandy beach. Twenty meters away. In the moonlight I could see them, two men and a woman, they must have been tourists, German by the sound of their accent, and they were looking at us. I saw the recognition on their faces. They saw. They understood. They knew exactly what we were doing on the pier in the moonlight.
My body tensed. Tibor saw them too. He stopped for a moment.
"Don't stop," I said.
"But..."
"Don't stop."
I don't know why I said it. Maybe because my whole life the world had told me to hide. To be invisible. To never show who I am. And now I lay on the pier, naked, a man's cock inside my body, in the moonlight, and strangers were watching and I didn't care. I didn't care. For the first time in my life I completely didn't care.
Tibor understood. I saw it in his eyes. Not the disappearance of shame. But the recognition that the shame had never been his. Others had put it on him. And now he put it down.
The Germans watched. Tibor moved. I moaned. The moon shone. Lake Balaton rocked gently around the pier's legs. The wood creaked. My body was alive. Every centimeter of it was alive. Every pore felt the air and the water and the wood and Tibor's skin and the moonlight and the night and life.
The orgasm came like a wave. It built slowly, from the deepest part of my body, from where Tibor's cock rubbed my prostate, it ran up my spine like lightning, spread across my chest, and when it reached my brain, I cried out. Loudly. My voice traveled across the lake. My cock shot my cum onto my stomach, white in the moonlight, and Tibor came after me, seconds later, and I felt him come inside me, his hot cum filling my insides, and he held my legs on his shoulders and his hips pressed against mine and he didn't move, just existed inside me, deep, completely, finally.
The Germans applauded.
They applauded.
They stood on the shore and clapped and one of them called out something in German that I didn't understand but the tone radiated recognition and approval.
Tibor looked at me. I looked at Tibor. Then we started laughing. We lay there on the pier, tangled in each other, Tibor's cock still inside me, cum everywhere between us, and we laughed. We laughed the way only someone can laugh who has just understood that they are free. That they don't have to hide. That their body and their love and their desire is not a sin and not a shame but something that deserves applause.
The stars above us shone brightly. The full moon's silver light covered us like a blanket. Lake Balaton quietly caressed the pier's legs. Somewhere in the cottage Zsolt was still snoring. Reka was perhaps dreaming about us, perhaps smiling in her sleep.
Tibor pulled himself out of me, lay down beside me on the wood, rested his head on my chest. My heartbeat slowly calmed. Our skin glistened in drying water and cum and moonlight.
"This has been the best summer of my life," I said.
"It's not over yet," Tibor said.
He was right.
But in that moment I didn't know that every summer ends. That happiness isn't a state but a guest who sooner or later leaves. That after the best summers come the coldest winters.
I didn't know that.
That night on the pier, Tibor on my chest, the moon in the sky, the stars reflected in Lake Balaton, that night all I knew was that I was happy.
And that was enough

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