Log inAn Apology Before We Move On
I'm sure many of you have noticed how scarce I have been lately. Not just the last 5 months, but several years. I deeply apologize. This has not only been rough on you, but me as well. During the last 5 months I've seen my income steadily fall while expenses rise. I know that's a struggle we are all dealing with, and for those that remain or just keep an eye on me through the free tier, I appreciate that more than you know.
The truth is that I've been in a failing relationship during that time, and after 12 years of happiness and 2 years of unimaginable sadness, it's over. I am a very private person and I debated sharing much at all, but I will share enough to explain. That's something I want to do.
For the past 2-3 years, I have been repeatedly cheated on, romantically ignored, and withdrawn from by my partner of 14 years. For many months I worked through that pain. I kept it a secret because I valued my relationship and didn't want to turn my community against it. I knew that the sycophancy that comes from being an influencer, however small, would give me twisted advice.
What started as a pragmatic decision became a suffocation that left me no one to turn to. Worse, after repeated crimes against trust, my sex drive cratered and even the ability to draw an adult comic started to atrophy. I thought if I lean into videogame development I could somehow provide the community with something - anything. And then it got worse.
I am now out of that relationship. In the last month I've opened up to my community on Discord and shared some of these stories. I've entered therapy, started exercising again, and streaming more often.
Healing is a process. I know I've been drawing a lot of 'cute' stuff over the last several months especially (which, if you're interested, you can find all my recent doodles here https://corablue.net/#/doodle - Posting images attached to this story didn't seem appropriate). But I am getting better every day and currently looking for a comic to work on.
For those wondering about the poll, I did decide on Inheritance, and I sketched out the entire chapter, but I didn't have it in my heart to finish. I will be posting those roughs soon for people to appreciate however.
I again apologize for this inexcusable absence. Your support has enabled me to heal without financial worry, and I will make it up to you in time.
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I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I'm glad you've been able to move past that relationship though 🫂💜
What they put you through is awful. Very glad that you made it out the other side to be able to get on the road to healing. Thank you for opening up enough to let us know how you're doing.
Sorry to hear that. It sounds like a rough time and thank you for being open to sharing it with us. I hope things get better for you from here on out.