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[note for new followers/subscribers who never saw my voice updates: i had vocal nodules for over a year (since august 2023) and got surgery to have them removed on september 19th, 2024! as a result, i've been on hiatus due to my nodules, and now i'm going through recovery so i'm still on hiatus. because of this, i won't be easing off my hiatus until around late nov 2024/early dec 2024, and i don't expect to be 100% back or on a regular content schedule until late december 2024/january 2025!]
hello, and welcome to my subscribestar! i'll be pinning this explanation of why i have one + the difference between this and patreon~
"why subscribestar when you already have patreon?" while i absolutely love the creative space that patreon provides, there are certain limitations due to their terms of service that prevent me from exploring some of the themes i’m drawn to. i know many of you are aware that some of my content leans into darker, more intense, or taboo storylines, and i really want the freedom to explore these themes without constantly worrying about crossing a line on patreon. subscribestar offers that creative freedom, allowing me to delve into some of the ideas that wouldn’t be possible on patreon.
"so what do you mean by dark, taboo, or intense?" the kind of content i’m planning to release on subscribestar will include themes and scenarios that are more controversial or intense, like:
♡ blackmail
♡ dub-con
♡ non-con
♡ mind control/hypnosis
♡ stepsiblings/siblings
♡ more violence in yandere or kidnapping audios
♡ loli characters
♡ art of any characters that are flat or loli
♡ art i commission of my 2.0 vtuber model (not asmr related and won't be paywalled!)
this list isn’t exhaustive, but hopefully, it gives you a good sense of the direction i’m going for.
"why do you suddenly want to make these types of audios/create this sort of stuff now?" honestly, this interest is nothing new. if you’ve been a fan of me for a while, you already know i have a passion for darker, more complex plots in my audios. my original yandere audios were very fucked up, as well as other audios i made back then! this love for intense themes has always been a part of my creative style. it’s just that as time has gone on, i started to hold back and hesitated to release certain audios if i felt they might be too controversial or upsetting for some listeners. in fact, i’ve had to scrap several scripts or alter plots to keep things within a more ‘acceptable’ range, which has been limiting creatively.
here are a few examples where i faced backlash or felt restricted:
♡ "punishing your gamer girlfriend for raging" – this was a bdsm audio featuring spanking, but some people labeled it as "abuse" instead of understanding the context and that people can consensually like this
♡ "catgirl twins gone lewd [part 1]" – i received harassment from someone for two years because they interpreted it as "supporting incest" (the twins kissed one time lmao)
♡ "catgirl twins gone lewd (japanese version)" – catgirl twins being flat/lolis in thumbnail = pitchfork time
♡ "classmate gives you service" – listeners felt bad for the character and thought her position seemed forced/non-consensual
♡ "your stepsisters are lewd streamers" – this one involved blackmail, which led to some people trying to report it because they were uncomfortable with the theme
long story short, there's been a lot of instances!
"what made you change your mind about not making that sort of stuff?" being on hiatus for over a year has made me realize how much time i wasted holding my feelings or creativity back just to avoid upsetting people. i decided a while back that when i come back, i want to be 100% me without restricting myself or my content, even if it's not everyone else's cup of tea!
"so, what’s the plan moving forward?" once i'm 100% back to content creation:
♡ patreon: i’ll continue releasing 4 audios per month, just like usual.
♡ subscribestar: — 2 to 4 exclusive audios each month, depending on my availability, streaming commitments, and other projects i have in the works.
hello, and welcome to my subscribestar! i'll be pinning this explanation of why i have one + the difference between this and patreon~
"why subscribestar when you already have patreon?" while i absolutely love the creative space that patreon provides, there are certain limitations due to their terms of service that prevent me from exploring some of the themes i’m drawn to. i know many of you are aware that some of my content leans into darker, more intense, or taboo storylines, and i really want the freedom to explore these themes without constantly worrying about crossing a line on patreon. subscribestar offers that creative freedom, allowing me to delve into some of the ideas that wouldn’t be possible on patreon.
"so what do you mean by dark, taboo, or intense?" the kind of content i’m planning to release on subscribestar will include themes and scenarios that are more controversial or intense, like:
♡ blackmail
♡ dub-con
♡ non-con
♡ mind control/hypnosis
♡ stepsiblings/siblings
♡ more violence in yandere or kidnapping audios
♡ loli characters
♡ art of any characters that are flat or loli
♡ art i commission of my 2.0 vtuber model (not asmr related and won't be paywalled!)
this list isn’t exhaustive, but hopefully, it gives you a good sense of the direction i’m going for.
"why do you suddenly want to make these types of audios/create this sort of stuff now?" honestly, this interest is nothing new. if you’ve been a fan of me for a while, you already know i have a passion for darker, more complex plots in my audios. my original yandere audios were very fucked up, as well as other audios i made back then! this love for intense themes has always been a part of my creative style. it’s just that as time has gone on, i started to hold back and hesitated to release certain audios if i felt they might be too controversial or upsetting for some listeners. in fact, i’ve had to scrap several scripts or alter plots to keep things within a more ‘acceptable’ range, which has been limiting creatively.
here are a few examples where i faced backlash or felt restricted:
♡ "punishing your gamer girlfriend for raging" – this was a bdsm audio featuring spanking, but some people labeled it as "abuse" instead of understanding the context and that people can consensually like this
♡ "catgirl twins gone lewd [part 1]" – i received harassment from someone for two years because they interpreted it as "supporting incest" (the twins kissed one time lmao)
♡ "catgirl twins gone lewd (japanese version)" – catgirl twins being flat/lolis in thumbnail = pitchfork time
♡ "classmate gives you service" – listeners felt bad for the character and thought her position seemed forced/non-consensual
♡ "your stepsisters are lewd streamers" – this one involved blackmail, which led to some people trying to report it because they were uncomfortable with the theme
long story short, there's been a lot of instances!
"what made you change your mind about not making that sort of stuff?" being on hiatus for over a year has made me realize how much time i wasted holding my feelings or creativity back just to avoid upsetting people. i decided a while back that when i come back, i want to be 100% me without restricting myself or my content, even if it's not everyone else's cup of tea!
"so, what’s the plan moving forward?" once i'm 100% back to content creation:
♡ patreon: i’ll continue releasing 4 audios per month, just like usual.
♡ subscribestar: — 2 to 4 exclusive audios each month, depending on my availability, streaming commitments, and other projects i have in the works.
for the most part, the subscribestar audios will not overlap with patreon, so you’ll be getting completely different content on each platform! the only exceptions will be:
♡ an audio i intentionally release on both, with the "normal" scenes on patreon and the crazier scenes on subscribestar
♡ an audio i feel uncertain about patreon having an issue with, so i post to both platforms to be on the safe side
hope you enjoy the content!
